idiosyncrasies of a lady

Warisan Senandung Di Kala Malam

2011-11-21T05:01:00.001+08:00

Dulu aku pernah terasa kehilangan sebuah keluarga. Tempat aku mengadu cerita. Tempat aku bersuka duka. Tempat aku melupakan segala lara. Tempat aku berkongsi tawa gembira. Untuk kali itu aku terasa kehilangan tempat bersenandung di kala malam.

Tapi kini aku bertemu kembali harapan. Keceriaan dan kegembiraan. Persahabatan dan kekeluargaan. Perkongsian dan penerimaan. Fahaman dan pemahaman. Aku bertemu kembali tempat aku mewariskan pengalaman dan pengetahuan. Dan kali ini aku telah kembali berada di sisi keluarga.

senyuman dia

2011-10-20T04:59:00.000+08:00

hari ini aku melihat dia memandang pada aku sambil tersenyum. perkara yang jarang2 berlaku sejak akhir2 ini. dah lama aku tak nampak dia senyum selebar itu. selalunya mukanya serius memikirkan tugasan. kadang2 sugul memikirkan masalah. tapi hari ini berbeza. tak sangka aku dapat melihat dia senyum. senyumannya yang selalu menyebabkan aku senyum sekali. terlalu asyik melihat dia senyum, sehingga aku tak sedar yang rupanya dia tersenyumkan perkara yang disembangkan di dalam telefon bersama rakannya. alangkah bagus kalau senyumannya itu untuk aku.

my first 'Wordless Wednesday'

2011-07-27T14:24:00.002+08:00

source: fikri

mentaliti makcik2

2011-07-26T11:37:00.001+08:00

hari tu aku jumpa makcik A. kira jarang jugalah aku jumpa dia. sedang seronok lepak2 sambil sembang2 dengan makcik A, tiba2 aku buka cerita tentang nenek kawan aku yang awet muda. tengok muka nenek tu macam yang jenis makan ulam. orang dulu2 kan suka makan ulam. lagipun kawan aku cerita, nenek dia memang jaga makan. aku kagum dengan tahap kesihatan mental dan fizikal serta rupa dia yang nampak sebaya dengan anak2 nya.

aku : hari tu saya pergi rumah kawan saya. jumpa nenek dia. nenek dia nampak muda sangat. kalau duduk sebelah ayah dia, nampak macam adik beradik je.

makcik A : dia tu mesti 'memakai' la tu. (dengan muka selamba).

senafas je aku dengar ayat tu dari dia. aku kira semua faham apa maksud 'memakai' tu. aku pun hairan. entah macam mana boleh sampai ke situ makcik ni fikir? padahal kawan dia sendiri, makcik B, pun awet muda macam tu juga. kalau makcik B tu duduk dengan anak2, orang cakap macam kawan2 je. tak ada pula makcik A nak fikir pasal 'memakai' ni? aku sengaja buat muka confused dan cakap kat makcik tu:

aku : eh, tak kot. makcik ni.. tak baik la fikir macam tu. (sambil gelak2).

makcik tu tersengih2 malu. lepas tu dia macam nak cover balik ayat dia tadi.

makcik A : eh, tak. maksud makcik, dia tu mesti 'memakai' bedak2 atau cosmetic products lain. ade la tu.

hurmm.. aku senyum je. bukan niat aku nak kurang ajar menegur orang yang lagi tua. tapi kalau salah yang kita terang2 nampak, takkan kita nak biar kan? itu pun dah habis berhati2 aku jaga ayat tak nak bagi dia terasa. mungkin juga dia berniat nak bergurau.

mentaliti makcik2. selalu kalau tengok dalam tv pun kita dah marah. inikan pula jumpa depan mata. tak ada beza makcik2 kampung atau kl. semuanya sama je. kenapa perlu terlalu negatif? menuduh melulu tanpa usul periksa. aku memang kurang berkenan bab melulu2 ni. fikir dulu sebelum buat. fikir orang lain juga, bukan diri sendiri je. kita buat dengan satu cara, orang lain terima berbeza2. kadang2 kita tak sedar apa yang kita rasa betul, orang lain anggap salah. the thing is, don't judge people easily. there is more to a person than what you see or hear. positive is the way to go. it makes everything a lot happier. tak gitu?

meLAYU

2011-07-08T11:01:00.001+08:00

PERJUANGAN KITA BELUM SELESAI!

for better or for worse

2011-07-06T14:15:00.001+08:00

Dear,

This is not a love letter, neither is it a warning letter. It isn't a wish list, nor a request. It requires no reaction, no response. Because it is just a statement. It is not created because I'm upset, certainly not because you have done something wrong. It is just a simple note that I feel like writing for you. And it exists for one reason and one reason alone: to let you know. To let you know a piece of what I'm thinking. To let you know this -

I have asked something from you before. I asked for permission. Permission for ME to know everything. Every single little thing that happen to you or in front of you. No matter how insignificant it is.
The reason I asked for that is not because I'm jealous. Although, I admit that sometimes I DO get jealous. But that's not the case here. The reason I want to know everything about you is because it is about YOU. And knowing everything about you makes me feel like we're closer. No matter how far apart we are.
So tell me everything. I want to know. For being close to you is one thing I will never get tired of.

XO.

TIME TESTED BEAUTY TIPS by Sam Levenson

2011-05-03T14:43:00.000+08:00

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you'll never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; Never throw out anybody.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself, the other for helping others.
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.
The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!
-- Sam Levenson

This is one of Audrey Hepburn's favourite poems, and it is becoming one of my favourites too. Many internet postings and email-go-rounds stated that Audrey wrote this poem. On the contrary, it was Sam Levenson who wrote the poem for his grandchild, and it just so happened to be one of Audrey's favourite. The poem was then mis-attributed to her, after it was known that she liked it and had read it to her children.

a nightmare.

2011-04-30T09:13:00.001+08:00

i woke up early this morning. because i dreamt of something so bad. so bad that i woke up crying. shaking, gasping for air, i was crying so hard. and it frightened me that i cried so hard over a ~~dream~~ nightmare. all because it felt so real. too real. i woke up and found my hands covering my face in an act of protecting myself. shielding from what will hit me. i didn't know it would still haunt me. after all this years. i didn't know it would still hurt. i dreamt about being hurt but when i woke up, the pain is still there. i could still feel it. so i cried. how ironic it is, that i dared not cry in my dream. but as soon as i realise that i was no longer dreaming, the tears that rolled down my cheeks were unstoppable. i thought i had forgotten about it. i never ever want to remember how it feels again. so please. PLEASE. i'm begging you, stop haunting me.

the road to truth

2011-04-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

KACA ANGKASA by Wani Ardy

2011-04-29T02:18:00.002+08:00

KACA ANGKASA (written & composed by Wani Ardy)

Aku kasihan dengan mereka
Yang tidak tahu beza kaca permata
Aku kasihan dengan mereka
Yang tidak tahu syukur apa ada

Punya teman, kita lemparkan
Dunia luas, apa yang dihairan
Manusia mudah terasa
Merumitkan apa yang biasa

Apa perlunya dendam segala
Bila ada Tuhan dan karma
Apa jaminan kita kekal sama
Persetan kenal sebulan atau sedekad

Punya teman, kita lemparkan
Dunia luas, apa yang dihairan
Manusia mudah terasa
Merumitkan apa yang biasa

“Siapa yang mahu
menadah sambut
kaca dari angkasa?”

Yang kita betul hendak, seribulah menapak
Yang kita sudah enggan, melangitlah hujahan
Kita kaca bagi yang buta
Manusia mudah terasa
Merumitkan apa yang biasa

(Lagu ada di bawah. Track 19.)

9 deadly words used by women

2011-04-27T00:44:00.004+08:00

OKAY. this is for the GUYS out there who are often confused by answers women gave them. apparently, some of you might have heard that what women say isn't really what they mean. this is related to yet another theory which says women doesn't really know what they are doing. for all that, let me explain to you guys what women really mean by their words. LADIES, you might disagree with this but let's face it. they ARE true. so here goes:

FINE - this is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.
FIVE MINUTES - if she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
NOTHING - this is the calm before the storm. this means something, and you should be on your toes. arguments that begin with nothing usually end in FINE.
GO AHEAD - this is a dare, not permission. DON'T DO IT!
LOUD SIGH - this isn't actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. a LOUD SIGH means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about NOTHING. (refer back to #3 for the meaning of NOTHING.)
THAT'S OKAY - this is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. THAT'S OKAY means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
THANKS - a woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. just say 'you're welcome'. (i want to add in a clause here - this is true, unless she says 'thanks a lot' - that is pure sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome'. that will bring on a WHATEVER.)
WHATEVER - is a woman's way of saying F-YOU!
DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT, I GOT IT - another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. this will later result in a man asking 'what's wrong?'. for the woman's response, refer to #3.

so there you go, guys. i hope this will more or less help you in understanding/dealing with women. my best wishes go to you guys. =P

someone to live with, someone to die for

2011-04-26T16:32:00.005+08:00

When life comes rushing at you out of the darkness who will you choose to face it with? Will it be someone you trust? Will they be wise? And will their love for you help them to guide you to the light, or will they lose their way in the darkness? Will they make noble choices? Or will that person be untested, someone new?

Life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness. When it does, is there someone in your life you can count on -- someone who will watch over you when you stumble and fall, and in that moment, give you the strength to face your fears alone?

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment who will you be? Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul?

At this moment there are 6,975,235,700 people in the world. Give or take a few. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes all you need is one. For better or for worse.

"Time takes it all. Whether you want it to or not, time takes it all away, time bares it away. And in the end, there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometimes we lose them there again." - Stephen King

just one year to go.

2011-04-26T03:08:00.001+08:00

i can't believe i'm already in the end of my third year of studying chemical engineering. it felt almost too soon and now i'm already preparing for my internship. what a semester these past four months have been. since the beginning of this semester i've stopped dancing for a while so i can focus more on my studies. goodness, do i miss dancing now. this semester i'm all about getting my grades up - which by far is going pretty good. my final exam starts this week. yesterday, to be exact, and the first paper went really well. i was all smiles when it ended. although, it is still way too soon to be celebrating. i still have four more papers and when i'm done with that, i'll be going back to kl immediately to prepare for my internship.

i'm excited and at the same time nervous to start my internship once my exams ended.

musim durian dah mula!!

2011-04-03T22:03:00.005+08:00

Yeay!! Musim durian dah nak mula lagi!! Tak sabar rasa nak balik kampung makan durian longgok berbakul2. Teringat pula dulu waktu kami sekeluarga sekali dengan nenek, makcik2, pakcik2 dan sepupu sepapat menyerbu sebakul besar durian sebab tengah musim. Kebetulan masa tu raya aidilfitri dan giliran kami sekeluarga beraya di Malaysia. Sampai sakit2 perut kami melayan durian. Ada yang sampai demam2 siap. Orang kata, tak payah mengaku orang Perak lah kalau tak makan durian. Hahaha..saya setuju!

Disebabkan tak sabar nak tunggu betul2 musim durian, hari Khamis lepas saya dan En. Kopi 'O' pun pergi lah ke Kuantan dengan misi mencari durian. Sebenarnya En. Kopi 'O' yang teringin sangat nak makan durian. Saya biasa je sebab sebelum tu dah makan dengan roommate2 terchenta. Disebabkan keteringinan yang tak dapat dibendung, saya pun temanlah En. Kopi 'O' pergi menjejak durian.

Jalan punya jalan, kami ternampak ada satu gerai tepi jalan jual durian. Ada dua orang apek jaga durian tu. Kami pun berhenti tepi jalan dan pergi meninjau2. Harga durian masa tu agak mahal sebab belum betul2 musim lagi. Tapi sebab teringin sangat nak makan, En. Kopi 'O' tak kisah. Dia beli juga. So kami beli sebiji durian D24 dengan harga RM28. Beli sebiji je sebab yang nak makan kami berdua je. 'Biar mahal asal tak kempunan'.

Dah kata teringin sangat nak makan, memanglah tak tahan bau durian tu bila letak dalam bonet. Rasa nak buka dan makan masa tu juga. Tapi kena cari tempat yang sesuai. So kami pun pergi ke Teluk Cempedak. (mana lagi tempat sesuai nak menikmati makanan, mestilah kat pantai kan!) Bila dah buka durian tu lagi lah kami teruja. Isi durian tu SANGAT tebal, gebu dan manis! Tebal sangat sampai saya hanya larat makan seulas je. By the time nak makan ulas kedua, saya dah tak larat nak habiskan. Apa lagi, En. Kopi 'O' pun seronok la habiskan yang selebihnya.

Sekian cerita pengembaraan kami mencari durian di kala musimnya baru nak mula. Akhirnya memang kami puas hati dapat makan durian yang sangat sedap. Oh ye, maaf lah gambar kualiti Sony Ericsson 2 megapixels je. Itu je yang ada masa tu. Hehehe~

'airmata kering'

2011-03-27T19:16:00.007+08:00

'kerak bedak di pipi

aku biar

sampai kau pulang

satu hari nanti.'

ditulis oleh Fynn Jamal dua tahun yang lalu.

dan sekarang dirasa oleh aku.

this is an announcement. it will be stuck here until the event ended. please scroll down for latest posts.

2011-03-26T23:59:00.006+08:00

Acara: SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE!
Tarikh: 26hb Mac 2011
Waktu: 9 malam
Tempat: Amphitheatre UMP

Anda semua dijemput datang ke SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE! anjuran UMP Orchestra. Macam-macam jenis persembahan akan dipersembahkan oleh macam-macam jenis kumpulan. Band ada, tarian ada, teater ada, puisi ada, nasyid pun ada. Pendek kata, semua lah ada. InsyaAllah saya dan rakan-rakan juga akan berpentas dalam slot teater dan puisi. Sekarang ni sedang dalam proses latihan and perahan idea. Ajak kawan2, pakwe-makwe, adik beradik. Mari kita sama2 memeriahkan SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE!

to all BURLESQUE fans, with a little extra cash!

2011-03-17T21:38:00.010+08:00

To all Burlesque movie fans (or simply a fan of either the theme 'burlesque' or Christina Aguilera herself), here's a chance for you to feel like the glamorous Ali Rose. Burlesque's star Christina Aguilera decided to put her Beverly Hills home up for sale. And the best part is that the house is Burlesque-themed! You can be a star in your own burlesque in this house, that's for sure. Nobody is going to stop you since it's your OWN HOUSE. That is if you have US$13.5 million.

The 10,000 sq ft home boasts 6 bedrooms and 9 bathrooms. (I'm always wondering why they always have more bathrooms than bedrooms.)

Christina and her ex-husband Jordan Bratman bought the home from Ozzy Osbourne and his wife, Sharon, for around US$11 million in 2008. The palatial estate was featured in MTV reality series, The Osbournes. Upon buying it, Christina had completely revamped the property which also has a grotto pool with a waterfall, and a guest house.

So how about that? Want to live in the real burlesque? Come on people, show me how you burlesque!

Source: Daily Mail

ikut sedap dia je...

2011-03-17T01:15:00.001+08:00

ilham ni bila nak datang memang tak kira tempat dan masa. kalau dia nak datang, dia memang ikut sedap dia je nak serang kat mana2. kadang2 tu kat dalam bilik air pun ada. selalunya memang kat situ lah. masa tu lah dapat idea nak tulis puisi, masa tu lah tiba2 dapat melodi, masa tu lah dapat jalan cerita untuk teater. semua nak datang sekali harung masa tu. sampai tak tahu nak fikir mana satu dulu. sedar2 dah sabun badan guna syampu. tu belum kira masa cuci muka guna ubat gigi.

kadang2 tu lagi dua tiga minit nak lelapkan mata, masa tu lah ilham datang mencurah2. nak menaip masa tu malas lah pula nak on laptop balik. capai je lah apa2 kertas yang ada atas meja. tak jumpa kertas, taip dalam henfon pun jadi. esok2 taip balik dalam laptop.

tapi paling geram, bila kita nak cari ilham memang susah betul nak jumpa dia. bila betul2 nak guna pakai. nak cari idea untuk presentation depan lecturer esok. masa tu lah dia malu2 nak datang. segan2 je nak jumpa. sampai kena korek gali ceruk celah. nasib lah kalau terserempak secebis dua. kadang2 langsung tak jumpa2. sebab itu juga lah kadang2 blog ni terbiar lama.

ilham datang memang kita tak jangka. semua ni atas usaha kita juga. dan juga izinNya. bila Tuhan nak bagi, dia boleh bagi bila2 masa. kun faya kun. bila Allah kata jadi, maka jadilah ia.

another picnic!

2011-03-15T18:13:00.008+08:00

I went for another picnic last weekend and this time it's with my groovy roomies! My roomies and I had planned for our girls'-day-out since last month. Early planning is pretty much necessary since it's very rare for all four of us to be available in the same weekend. So I told them about my picnic with Mr Kopi 'O' last month - I posted about it here - and since they are all also fans of picnics and parties, we all agreed to have a picnic party by the beach. I wanted to let them taste the famous Gelora Curry Puff I had mentioned and my most favourite burger of all time - Burgermbira!

So we left UMP at about 11 am and were headed for Kuantan right away. We did a little bit of shopping before heading to Taman Gelora at about 4.30 pm for the fluffy curry puffs. We settled on the far end of Teluk Chempedak beach where there are not as many people compared to the other parts of the beach. We had so much fun eating in the friendly breeze while posing for the camera. It was definitely a blast!

I just LOVE picnics! ♥

believe in what you do

2011-03-02T09:29:00.004+08:00

people may never understand

why you do the things you do,

have faith and just believe in it

because that's all that matters.

female logic

2011-02-22T14:08:00.003+08:00

Theoretically, this is how the female logic works.

You think?

people, meet BETTY.

2011-02-21T22:49:00.005+08:00

Remember Billy? I mentioned him in one of my post here. Well, Mr. Kopi 'O' made him and he is now sitting soundly next to my laptop. He is being a great company especially when my roommates went home for the weekends. And as a reward to that, I made him a friend. People, meet Betty.

However, they only get to play around together for a short while because very recently, I gave Betty to Mr. Kopi 'O' so he could take care of her. I hope he takes care of her well. =]

Gelora Curry Puff

2011-02-17T10:10:00.010+08:00

If you are ever in Kuantan, there is one place that you just HAVE to go. You must've heard about the beautiful Teluk Cempedak Beach (TC) which is quite a popular spot in Kuantan. On the way to TC, you'll find another beach (Kuantan has a number of beautiful beaches) known as Taman Gelora Beach. There's a small stall at the edge of Taman Gelora's carpark which serves mouth watering curry puff. The stall is owned by a Malay family and is usually open only for a short time of the day. The curry puffs are well sought after that most of the time, you would have to queue up to buy them.

Mr. Kopi 'O' and I have been drooling for these puffs for a very, very long time. We would always go out with these savory curry puffs in our minds. However, every time we arrived at the park (which is about 5.30 pm - 6.00 pm), it would always be too late and the stall closed. I have even thought seriously about taking the stall's owner's phone number so I would know when it will be opened again. We usually end up eating some place else.

So last Tuesday, we planned to go out early just so we can catch the stall's business hours. We went a bit too early and at about 4 pm, we head straight to Taman Gelora. Mr. Kopi 'O' bought a plastic bag full of the puffy puffs. They were fat and yummy!

We ate some of it, and went on with our main plan which is to have a picnic at Teluk Cempedak Beach. So we went there and continued eating the puffs on the breezy beach. The beautiful weather made the curry puffs a lot tastier. Mr. Kopi 'O' bought so many that by the time we ended our picnic by the beach, the plastic bag was still half-filled with curry puffs. After the picnic we went home with a very content heart that we finally get to eat the delicious curry puffs.

PS: I should have taken the rest of the puffs instead of letting Mr. Kopi 'O' finish them. I'm craving for it again now! Owh, and thank you Mr. Kopi 'O'! ♥

to think or not to think?

2011-02-12T02:03:00.007+08:00

sometimes he thinks,

sometimes he doesn't.

that's why i love him.

my wall

2011-02-11T11:33:00.009+08:00

people say your workplace is you. it is a mirror of how you operate. if it is clean and neat, that means you are a very systematic person. if it's messy and untidy, that just shows how you are as a person.

that's what people say. i'm not sure how much of it is true. to me, each person has their own way of working. their own way of getting things done. it's all subjective. and so i'm showing you what my workplace looks like.

messy? neat? again, it's subjective. some people may see it as messy, not neat enough. others may think it's neat, not too messy. the way the viewer see it may also reflects how they (the viewer) work. if they see it as messy, they MAY be the ones who love to work systematically in a neat environment. if they see it as tidy and neat, they MAY be the ones who knows their clutter.

i emphasize on the MAY. because it's all subjective.

now let's have a closer look at what i have on my wall.

i have a habit of keeping ribbons from gifts. and i'll put them up on my board wherever it seems suit. most of the things i stuck on my wall are reminders. some of them i keep to remind me of what needs to be done. assignment papers yet to be submitted. lists of chores. i would order books and stuff online and stick the bank receipt up my wall to remind me that i haven't received the ordered stuff yet. some other things up there are just reminders of things i did, like the tickets of a movie i enjoyed. i would print pictures that i like and pin them wherever there's free space. i would hang tags of recent events i joined.

i am actually doing this - explaining in detail what inhabited my wall - out of pure boredom. why don't you tell me what's on your wall? tell me about your wall, please. i really want to know your wall! =]

papercraft.

2011-02-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

i've got a new hobby. well, technically, it's not really a NEW hobby since the first time i did it was during my school years. sometime around 2002 or 2003. so what's the new hobby?

it's PAPERCRAFT. i read about it from a friend's magazine sometime last week. i was on my holiday and since i haven't got anything more interesting to do, i figured papercraft would be a fun thing to pass my time with. at first, i didn't have any clue what 'papercraft' is. i was just attracted with the pictures of the completed models. you can build a model of just about anything. from a simple animal form to a very detailed model of Yamaha MT-01 bike or an elaborate model of Saint Basil's Cathedral. they were CUTE!

however, after further reading about it in the mag, i got the idea. then, i remembered that i've done one like it about 9 years ago. but at that time, i didn't know it was called 'papercraft'. i just thought it was fun to do. it required a lot of patience, though. i was helping a friend make a model of a japanese anime. it was really fun to do and by the time i finished, i was reluctant to hand the completed model back to him.

so, to all those out there who still haven't got a clue to what i am babbling about, no worries because i will show/explain to you exactly what i'm talking about. so, here goes:

PAPERCRAFT

what you need:

1. a pair of scissors

it helps to have a very sharp one. you don't want to ruin the tiny, delicate pieces while you're cutting them. however, BE VERY CAREFUL WITH SCISSORS. if you're under 10 years old, get an adult to supervise you. =]

2. glue

this is needed to glue the parts that have been cut out. it helps if you use a bottle of glue with a pointed nozzle. the small pointed nozzle makes it easier to glue the smaller parts so you won't make any mess while gluing.

3. a printer

this is used to print out the design that will be cut out. you can use any type of printer. you can print it in colors or simple black and white. whichever that suits you best. although, it will look more realistic if you print it out with high quality photo colors.

4. A4 papers

to build a stronger model of papercraft, use thicker sheets of A4 papers. right now i'm using 120 gsm white A4 papers which, by far, serves me quite well. but if you are planning to do a detailed, more elaborate model, use thicker paper.

5. papercraft pattern

this is the pattern that you will print out, cut and glue to build your model. you can easily find this on the internet. simply google 'papercraft' and you'll find tonnes of fun pattern of variable categories to choose from. it will look like this.

6. patience

this is a vital necessity of the process. cutting and gluing the model must be done very carefully and neatly and therefore takes up quite some time. it helps to have a partner especially when you are doing a bigger piece. also, the papers need just the right amount of tension and pressure from your hand. learn to control that well and you're ready to build your first papercraft!

so those were all you needed to start your very own papercraft hobby. let me show the ones that i've done!

this is the first model that i did after i read about it in the mag. it's a model of a rabbit which you can get from Canon Crative Park website. You can print out the pattern here.

later, i made these:

actually my papercraft partner made this one. it's name is Billy. got this from Tougui.

this chipmunk is from Canon Creative Park.

it's a calendar from Curiosity.

my papercraft partner (which is also my boyfriend) and i are currently working on a model of Eiffel Tower which, when completed, will be about a meter tall. wish us luck! good luck and have fun with yours too!

happy 21

2011-02-08T20:17:00.007+08:00

yesterday i turned 21. yes, people, i'm a year older (and hopefully wiser). i remember in the past years i always blog when it comes to my birthday. well, it's my third year in pahang and while i'm here i've celebrated my birthday in three very different ways. with three groups of very different people. at three different places. and i've enjoyed all three of them. very much.

during those years i would usually blog a lot about how i spent my birthdays. or how i felt during those days. but then again, i would blog elaborately about almost anything back then. now, however, even a single picture is hard to post when i've got a neverending list of things to do. time just flies now with so many things to do in so little time.

i remember my family would throw birthday parties when i was a little kid. friends and family would come with presents. the anticipation of knowing what was in those wrapped boxes and the excitement of making a wish before blowing the candle always made me a content and gleeful birthday girl.

i guess those kinds of celebration don't really apply to a lady in her 20s with so much going on for her anymore. no, i'm more happy with a single wish of 'Happy Birthday' which only means that people appreciate me enough to remember my birthday. and i appreciate that very much. it's the thought that counts. right, wishers? i do consider presents as bonuses, though. =]

(inhale)

(exhale)

yeah, i'm 21 now. doesn't differ much from being 20. it still feels the same. it'll probably feel different again when i'm turning 30. maybe i'll feel the same nervous/excited feeling like the time i turned 20. hurmm... maybe it is the change of the first digit that causes that nervous/excited-ness. whatever it is, i'm sure i'll be happier every other year. right now, i'm just focusing on being happy living life.

thanks for all the wishes and the gifts, people! ♥

malam ini dan dua malam lepas.

2011-01-11T01:18:00.007+08:00

dua malam lepas saya dan geng pergi jalan2 di pantai Teluk Cempedak seperti yang biasa kami lakukan di malam2 sebelum ni. kami dah beli tiket wayang tengah malam. sambil nak tunggu tengah malam tu kami pun layanlah geng bob tengah busking masa tu. memang best layan geng ni busking. sebab mereka bukan setakat main alat muzik akustik biasa je. ada alat muzik pelik2 dari negara lain pun mereka main. memang feel.

entah macam mana last2 geng saya pun join geng mereka. kami pun nyanyilah sebuah dua lagu. saya minta mereka main lagu Fynn Jamal, 150 Juta. mereka pun layankan je lah. sesiapa yang ada facebook boleh tengok video kat sini. geng saya tak hebat pun. join suka2 je.

ok. itu cerita dua malam lepas. tolak tepi dulu.

malam ni pula ada puisi riong. buat pertama kali puisi riong diadakan di UMP. fynn jamal dan ramli sarip ada perform. siapa nak lepas peluang baik macam ni kan? saya dan geng pun pergilah. saya dah memang eksaited nak jumpa kak fynn. itu je agenda utama saya sebenarnya.

nak dijadikan cerita tiba2 kami nampak bob atas pentas. tengah main muzik sekali dengan fynn jamal. baru kami perasan yang geng kak fynn tu adalah geng yang kami join busking kat TC dua malam lepas. lagilah kami eksaited. persembahan mereka spontan je. saya suka.

lepas habis show saya dan geng pergi jumpa kak fynn kat belakang pentas. sembang2 sikit sambil ambil2 gambar. kami jumpa papa rock juga.

kepada bob dan geng juga kak fynn, kita jumpa di PLORE nanti ye!

a toast!

2011-01-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!

we're here!

2010-11-26T21:19:00.003+08:00

and we're having lots of fun! we arrived about 1:30 pm this afternoon and after resting a bit we head straight for the beach. the beach is SOOO NICE!!! we took LOTS of photos but i can't upload them just yet because of a few difficulties. but i promise i will upload them all as soon as possible. 'till then, toodles guys!

zzzzz....

2010-11-26T09:10:00.001+08:00

snoozing a bit while waiting for the ferry. we were like kids jumping and running around taking photographs and now we're all flat out. and we haven't even got to the island yet! *pfftt*

we're halfway there!

2010-11-26T05:00:00.001+08:00

It's 4:45 am and we're halfway there! We're in Mersing now hanging out at Kedai Mamak Syed Ali, while waiting for the 11:30 am ferry to Kampong Genting jetty. Will be updating soon. Toodles!

all set and ready to go!

2010-11-25T22:16:00.005+08:00

only a few more hours left and I'm hoping I'll be updating from Tioman Island soon!

(toodles!)

sissies.

2010-11-24T20:20:00.003+08:00

took these while on our raya holidays last september.

now one's in malaysia and one's in brunei.

how i miss the these two girls right now.

more photos of the event here.

gather your beach stuff now

2010-11-24T00:41:00.003+08:00

because we're only

ONE

day to

TIOMAN ISLAND!

The Dreamer

2010-11-23T20:14:00.004+08:00

ni Kakdek. atau mungkin lebih dikenali dengan nama Fazleena Hishamuddin. mendengar dia berkata saja2 pun dah boleh buat bulu roma aku meremang. memang banyak benda aku belajar dari dia. seorang aktivist teater yang berkelayakan dalam bidang psikologi. aktif juga menyertai acara2 seperti FRINJAN dan MASKARA dan yang sewaktu dengannya. tapi bagi kami kroni2, dia adalah antara sahabat yang paling caring. pertama kali jumpa dia ketika mementaskan teater DETIK - pengalaman mementaskan teater yang paling dramatik pernah aku lalui. namun itu yang menjadikan kami kroni2 rapat. selain teater dan seni, satu lagi perkara yang sebahagian dari kami kroni2 minat adalah mengumpul barang2 vintage. mungkin kerana nilai seni yang ada pada sesuatu barang vintage itu. atau mungkin kerana ia nampak lain dari yang lain. tapi yang pasti, barangan vintage memang buat kami teruja. dan sebagai hobi, Kakdek ada jual baju2 vintage di blog keduanya, BohemianDreamy. dan untuk pertama kalinya, dia menyertai bazaar secara terbuka. kepada sesiapa yang berada di sekitar Subang Jaya, sila2 lah singgah ke Vintage Paradise Midnight Bazaar pada 26-28 november ini. =]

ps: kakdek, eqa curi gambar dekat fesbuk. and sorry ktowg tak dapat pergi bazaar tu. wish you could join us in tioman, though. =[

The Reason

2010-11-23T19:14:00.002+08:00

He ties the most perfect ribbon on my watch.

But that's not the reason I love him.

He buys me chocolate when I'm in period pain.

But that's not the reason I love him.

He holds me quietly when I'm in emotional chaos.

But that's not the reason I love him.

He loves me for who I am, unconditionally.

That's the reason I love him.

don't hit that exit button just yet!

2010-11-19T20:32:00.011+08:00

No, ladies and gentlemen, you did not click on a random link by accident. You may have expected to see the old brown scrapbook-like blog full of butterflies and whatnot. Well, this is still the same old Idiosyncrasies of a Lady with a brand new look. Yes, I've taken my blog through a makeover session.

Before my final exams started, I promised a very good friend that I would redecorate her blog. She liked the former look of my blog and would like something like that for hers as well. I also promised my little sister that I would create a new blog for her. When the final exams ended, I started working on those mini projects and when I'm done, I seem to have some extra hours with nothing in particular to do besides the usual chores. So, I figured: why not redecorate my own blog as well? I was starting to get weary of the old look of my blog, anyway. So I decided to go with a different look. Even blogs need a little facelift every now and then. Am I right or am I right?

Although the concept of the new look does not differ much from the old one, this look presents more colours. I tried to keep the widgets as simple as possible so as not to make it look too crowded.

This is how the blog looked like before:

and this is how it looks like now:

So, what do you think?

02112010

2010-11-02T02:11:00.005+08:00

HARI INI:

Birthday Encik Kopi 'O'.
Dia tak ingat birthday dia sendiri. (katanya lah.)
Celebrate di Gambang Point bersama Syidek, Akmal, Dilla dan Encik B.
First time mereka rasa 'Pecan Butterscotch' dari Secret Recipe. (nasib baik mereka suka!)
Sayang sebab Che Am, Yusrie, Yen, Pae dan geng/kronies yang lain tak dapat join.

SELAMAT HARI LAHIR

HAZRYL SYAFIQ ROZELI

(ko hingat ko hensem?!)

counting days

2010-10-22T00:07:00.003+08:00

17 days to go

(can't wait for the final exams to be over!)

wish me luck, guys!

geng SERATUS RIBU

2010-10-20T01:44:00.002+08:00

EQA | CHE AM | SYIDEK

INI GENG SERATUS RIBU SAYA.

SAYANG SAYA PADA MEREKA TAK TERKATA.

KENAPA SERATUS RIBU?

HANYA KAMI YANG TAHU.

(^_^)

2010-10-19T01:09:00.002+08:00

takut.

words in pointless form.

2010-10-10T12:08:00.009+08:00

i can be very emotional.

and when i'm being that emotional wreck i would usually prefer to be alone.

i would rather keep quiet.

because only in such silence i can hear myself think.

and being silent has become a therapy.

a habit during those wobbly times, to be exact.

and i have become used to that sound.

the sound of nothingness.

nothing but the thoughts in my head.

i can be very expressive.

and when i'm being expressive i always know what i'm saying.

until i reach the point where nothing i say makes sense.

when words could no longer portray how i feel inside.

for those times, i would cry.

because that is the only way i know left to let it go.

the only outlet for what has built up inside me.

and i hate to be seen crying.

so i would rather be alone.

i can be very simple.

i could care less about the things that would bother me.

about the things that contradict happiness and peace.

as long as i know what is going on around me.

as long as i know the truth, no matter how bitter it is.

or else, i would make assumptions.

speculations that can either be true or false.

my imagination can go beyond expectations.

when that happens, i can turn so complicated people would not understand me.

and to avoid any complications with the communication i have with people, i would choose to be alone.

i am so used to being alone.

so used to handling things myself.

in my own way.

because i used to be alone.

i used to handle things myself.

in my own way.

i guess i am so accustomed to being independent that i forget.

i forget that i now have people around me.

people that actually care.

people that actually worry.

and during those emotional times where the only thing i think about is my selfish self and the little things that bother me, i unintentionally ignored them.

and i'm sorry.

if i were in a more sane state, this is what i would really say:

thank you for staying by my side. even though it seemed like i didn't want you there.

the truth is i needed it. so i know that whatever happens, you will be there for me.

thank you for holding my hand all the way through. even though i didn't hold yours back.

the truth is i didn't have the strength. but at least i know that when i reach the point of giving up, you will never let me.

thank you for singing through those silent moments. even though i'm used to the sound of nothingness.

the truth is it's actually calming. and it reminds me that i'm not alone anymore.

malam 4 Syawal: malam penuh kenangan

2010-10-01T10:39:00.015+08:00

suka gambar ni. tak payah edit2. memang klasik. ni gambar nenek dan arwah atuk. kalau dalam family, kami panggil tok rahman dan puan normah. anak menantu panggil abah dan mak. cucu2 panggil atuk dan nenek. cicit2 panggil aki dan onyang.

masa gambar ni diambil, atuk dan nenek baru kahwin. kira masih honeymoon lagi la ni. masa tu umur atuk baru 20 tahun. sebaya aku sekarang. nenek pula 17 tahun. mudanya orang dulu2 kahwin. nenek cerita, sebelum mereka kahwin, masing2 tak pernah kenal. kahwin pun diatur oleh keluarga masing2. lagi konsep orang dulu2 yang aku rasa menarik: walaupun tak pernah kenal sebelum kahwin, boleh je hidup bahagia sampai ke cucu cicit. begitulah pentingnya restu keluarga, agaknya.

gambar ni aku jumpa dalam bilik nenek. terletak kemas dalam bingkai atas meja solek nenek. asalnya malam tu aku, mama dan aa (adik aku) bercadang untuk kebaya hunting. aku bercadang nak cari baju kebaya nyonya. mama kata nenek simpan lagi baju2 kebaya dia yang lama. aku dan adik aku pun teruja la nak tengok. kami memang cepat teruja dengan benda2 klasik ni. nak2 baju kebaya dulu2 memang cantik2. lain dari baju kebaya sekarang.

mama kata masa nenek muda2 dulu badan nenek besar badan aku je. jadi kemungkinan besar aku boleh muat baju kebaya vintage nenek tu. lagi la kami teruja. nenek kata baju2 lama dia simpan dalam almari berkunci dalam bilik tengah. almari tu pun klasik. jenis almari kayu yang guna kunci tulang. terasa juga la seram bila tengok barang2 lama. tapi bila fikir balik, barang2 tu kan nenek yang punya. tapi nenek tak ingat mana dia letak kunci tu. maka bertukarlah acara mencari kebaya menjadi acara mencari kunci.

masa nak cari kunci tu, nenek buka semua almari lama dia. aku dan adik aku terpegun melihat barang2 lama yang masih disimpan oleh nenek. gila klasik. coin pouch dulu2, cucuk sanggul besi, jam yang lagi tua usianya dari aku, semua barang lama dari zaman nenek muda. kami pun seronok je tolong selongkar.

tengah seronok selongkar tu kami terjumpa barang2 arwah atuk. tiba2 mood dalam bilik tu jadi sayu teringatkan arwah atuk. atuk pandai gunting rambut. dulu rambut anak2 dan cucu2 dia semua dia potong sendiri. gunting yang dia guna dulu, nenek simpan lagi. kalau ada barang2 rosak atuk suka baiki sendiri. screwdriver yang dia guna untuk baiki benda2 tu, nenek simpan lagi. atuk dulu polis. kadang2 dia bersihkan pistol dia. kayu yang dia guna untuk bersihkan pistol dia tu, nenek simpan lagi. banyak lagi barang2 yang kalau kita tengok rasa macam tak penting je. tapi kami tahu nenek simpan barang2 tu semua kerana kenangan yang ada pada barang2 tu. semua gambar2 lama masa arwah atuk masih hidup, nenek tunjuk.

sambil tengah kemas tu, nenek cerita pasal arwah atuk. macam mana masa atuk masih ada dulu. kebiasaan atuk hari2. macam mana dia mula2 jumpa dengan atuk. lepas dia cerita, dia keluar dari bilik. dia kata dia nak pergi tengok makanan kat atas meja. padahal kami tahu. dia keluar sebab dia tak nak tunjuk dia sedih. kerana kami nampak butir air mata di hujung mata nenek. masa tu tiba2 je aku rasa sebak yang amat. padahal masa dengar nenek cerita sebelum tu aku ok je. siap boleh gelak2 sambil fikir 'sweet juga atuk dengan nenek aku dulu'. tapi bila nenek keluar je dari bilik, air mata aku tak berhenti mengalir. bukan sebab menangis. sebab sebak. aku pandang adik aku. rupa2nya dia pun sama. kami gelak nak hentikan air mata tapi tak boleh juga. jadi kami layankan je. bukan sedih. tapi sebak.

sebak macam tengok cerita titanic. macam masa aku tengok cerita daisy. sebab aku rasa cerita atuk dan nenek aku sama sweet dengan movie2 tu. macam mana atuk yang dengarnya digilai gadis muda zaman dia tetap setia pada nenek yang tak pernah jemu menjaganya. macam mana dua orang yang tak pernah kenal sebelum kahwin boleh saling sayang menyayangi sampai ke hembusan nafas terakhir. hingga ke saat2 terakhir atuk, nenek setia menunggu di sisi. dan dia tabah. dia tak tunjuk yang dia bersedih di depan atuk. tapi kami tahu, dialah yang paling sedih ketika itu. walaupun yang lain ke hulu ke hilir risau dan dia hanya duduk tak bergerak. walaupun yang lain meraung menangis dan dia hanya diam tak bersuara. kami tahu hati dia paling pedih. tapi nenek redha. dan macam mana nenek jaga barang2 atuk dulu. sebab dia sayang. dia rindu. itu yang membuatkan kami sebak.

sebab itu setiap kali balik kampung aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk buat nenek gembira. cuba kurangkan penat dia. layankan apa yang dikata. dan aku tahu ahli keluarga yang lain pun cuba buat yang sama. sebab aku tahu dalam hati dia sunyi. dia rindu. walau dia tak tunjuk. walau dia tak cakap. kami tahu.

raya kali ni arwah atuk tetap diingati. dan kami berdoa agar rohnya tenang bersama roh2 orang yang mulia. dan kami juga berdoa agar dipermudahkan segala urusan nenek. kerana dia dah tak larat untuk bersendirian. usianya menyekat dia dari bergerak seperti dulu. tapi nenek jangan risau. nenek kan ada lebih 50 orang bodyguard. =]

akhirnya kami tak jumpa pun kunci almari tu. kami jumpa sesuatu yang lebih berharga: kenangan nenek bersama atuk. dan baru kami tahu sedalam mana cinta nenek pada atuk. kalah romeo and juliet!

RAYA '10

2010-09-22T18:00:00.007+08:00

Happy Raya everybody! Yeah, I'm actually still in the mood for Raya celebrations. I've said it lots of time: this year's Raya is especially fun. Maybe it's because my family flew home from Brunei. Maybe it's because it has been a long time since I last went back to Tanjung Malim, Perak. Maybe it's because the whole Tok Rahman family had not gathered for a while. Or maybe it's all of the reasons mentioned.

My family (Papa, Mama, Aa, Aiman and Adib) arrived from Brunei a few days before Raya and we went to Tanjung Malim on Raya eve. Not everybody was there this year but it was merry enough. Pictures were taken, actions were recorded, moments were captured. It was indeed a lot of fun especially with the little nieces and nephews running around looking cute!

So again, HAPPY RAYA TO ALL!!

sesi eksperimentasi II

2010-09-07T08:50:00.004+08:00

yang terlibat kali ini:

aa | aiman | adib | maya | cu man

bak kata orang putih, "the more, the merrier".

*senyum*

dan teruja bila sesuatu yang tak tersengaja menghasilkan sesuatu seperti ini:

(more photos of Sesi Eksperimentasi II via Facebook here.)

SAMPAI TUA by Fynn Jamal

2010-09-04T08:24:00.010+08:00

ini untuk kekasih hati aku. yang semalam telah tersentap jiwanya oleh sesuatu yang tak tersengaja. yang telah berkecamuk mindanya disebabkan perkara yang terjadi tanpa rela.

sayang, berhenti bersedih. kalau tak hati aku yang pedih.

SAMPAI TUA by Fynn Jamal

kasih
kesatkanlah airmata
ku dah tiba

kasih
percayalah aku kan ada
sampai tua

ini sumpahku padamu
usah kau patah dan layu
garing siang malam beku
pasakku teguh untukmu

mungkin taufan akan surut
tetap datang petir ribut
setiapnya aku sambut
untukmu takkan ku takut

kasih
biarkanlah apa saja
takdir kita

kasih
pegangkanlah jariku lama
sampai tua

ini sumpahku padamu
usah kau patah dan layu
garing siang malam beku
pasakku teguh untukmu

mungkin taufan akan surut
tetap datang petir ribut
setiapnya aku sambut
untukmu takkan ku takut

dan malam takkan berhenti menghirup nyawamu kasih
dan siang akan berterus meratahmu sampai bersih
aman saja aku ada
dihirupratah pun tetap berpimpinan berdua
sampai tua
aku ada
sampai tua

aku, dia dan mamak al-falah.

2010-09-02T23:38:00.001+08:00

aku, dia dan geng melangkah masuk Al-Falah dan terus ambil port biasa kami di tepi belakang kedai mamak tu.

mamak : mau minum apa?

dia : macam biasa lah.

mamak : ok. kopi 'o' satu. lagi?

aku : macam biasa juga.

mamak : erk? (muka blur)

haih.. tak aci betul mamak ni. aku rasa dah tiap2 malam aku order teh 'o' panas.

mood hari ini:

2010-09-02T17:45:00.005+08:00

1. tak sanggup nak tinggal di UMP lama2 terutama setelah melihat bazar ramadhan UMP yang semakin hambar dan kurang manusia.

2. tak larat memikirkan lab selama tiga jam tanpa henti pada pukul 8 pagi esok hari terutama bila mengetahui esok adalah giliran aku untuk dinilai oleh Jurutera Pengajar.

3. tak seronok pergi ke kelas terutama ketika berjalan ke kelas dan merasakan blok W tersangat lengang tiada manusia sepertinya budak2 kelas aku saja yang rajin enggan batalkan kelas.

4. tak sabar nak balik bercuti sempena raya terutama menunggu kepulangan keluarga tercinta yang sudah lama tak beraya di Malaysia.

5. tak tahu nak buat apa pada baju raya yang agak besar kerana ditempah mengikut ukuran badan sebelum hilang 5 kg terutama bila tukang jahit dah tak mahu terima tempahan/ubahsuai baju.

6. tak terasa yang Ramadhan dah nak sampai penghujungnya terutama bila tak sempat nak berbuka puasa beramai2 dengan budak2 kelas dan Senandika.

rasa

2010-08-23T01:25:00.004+08:00

rasa yang sempurna ini aku takut tercela.

takut tersumbing mana2.

takut tercalar tanpa sengaja.

takut retak tak terbela.

ini untuk NURUL SYAZRIN! ♥ [part 2]

2010-08-15T15:06:00.003+08:00

Nurul Syazrin selalu cakap yang dia rindukan kami.

'Kami' as in Apit, Akmal, Syidek, Che Am, En. B dan saya.

'Kami' sek2 Kuantan.

Saya pun cakap kat dia,

'Yenn, nanti Eqa cari kotak besar yang boleh muat Kami + Kuantan. Lepas tu kitorang akan hantar ke Kuala Terengganu guna Pos Laju.'

Jadi saya pun mula mencari kotak yang cukup besar dan boleh muat kami semua.

Sebab saya nak semua duduk ramai2 sama2.

Dah banyak kotak yang saya reject sebab tak cukup besar.

Kotak yang paling besar saya jumpa pun besar ni...

Kotak donut yang boleh muat Kami dengan selesa.

Ironiknya kotak donut kan?

Tapi masih tak muat nak sumbat Kuantan.

'Macam mana Yenn? Yang ni boleh ke?'

sesi eksperimentasi

2010-08-15T07:20:00.003+08:00

yang terlibat:

eqa

wawa

maya

bunga api

baby canon

lampu jalan

padang depan rumah

malam

(more photos of sesi eksperimentasi via Facebook here)

kami impikan...

2010-08-13T04:52:00.008+08:00

saya dan kawan-kawan saya impikan sebuah van Volkswagen klasik yang rupanya lebih kurang macam ni

kami ingat nak cari van macam ni dan kongsi duit beli. dan bila kami dah dapat cari van yang gila comel ni, kami nak namakan dia VAN KITA. kami nak beli cat warna-warni, isi belon2 kecil dengan cat yang kami beli tu, bawa kereta ni ke tengah2 kawasan letak kereta atau pantai (atau belakang rumah siapa2) dan baling belon2 berisi cat tu ke van yang kami kongsi2 beli tu. bila dah selesai main baling2 cat kereta tu akan nampak meriah dan ceria macam kami2 juga.

lebih kurang macam ni la design kereta tu bila dah dibaling2 dengan cat tapi dijamin lagi comel dari kereta dalam gambar diatas. dan kalau kami ada duit lebih2 sikit kami ingat nak ubahsuai interior van ni biar selesa sikit. kalau nak mewah lagi boleh la tukar jadi macam ni.

tapi kemewahan interior tak adalah penting sangat. yang penting keselesaan penumpang bila van ni digunakan untuk tour atau roadtrip ke mana2 pulau atau konsert. bila dah ada van ni nanti senang nak gerak ke mana2. senang nak buka puasa kat Teluk Cempedak atau Tanjung Lumpur. senang nak sahur dekat Gambang Point atau Al-Falah. senang nak pergi bercuti di Genting Highlands atau Pulau Redang. senang nak pergi menonton persembahan teater di Istana Budaya atau Stor DBP. senang nak pergi roadtrip spontaneous yang saja2 tanpa apa2 plan.

cool kan?

♥

2010-08-03T17:59:00.000+08:00

tak payah surprise meletup2

ada kamu dah cukup

ini untuk NURUL SYAZRIN! ♥

2010-08-02T04:07:00.004+08:00

yen sayang,

eqa tahu yen tengah bosan sekarang ni.

so apa kata kita main satu game.

nama game ni JOM TEKA NI MATA SIAPA.

siapa dapat teka semua betul dia cantik!!

(^_^)y

ketingtongan

2010-08-01T03:36:00.002+08:00

ketingtongan akibat ketidakbolehan tidur.

they're just excuses.

2010-08-01T02:46:00.000+08:00

Human beings look for reasons when things don’t go well. The circumstances, the timing, the weather, the luck. They pull out all these various excuses to console themselves.

“It wasn’t supposed to turn out like this. If only I could do it all over again.”

Will it really turn out well if you get to do it all over again? Since they failed the first time, where did that confidence of success the second time around come from?

siapa punya?

2010-07-25T14:12:00.003+08:00

orang kata
jangan sakitkan hati orang lain
tak baik
tapi
kalau kita kena pilih
hati orang atau hati kita
mana satu patut kita pilih?

cleaning.in.progress

2010-07-08T16:23:00.004+08:00

It has been weeks since I last visited my blog. I wasn't able to get online so it was hard for me to update the blog. So as soon as I get the chance, I got online and started typing away. I haven't blogged for over a month and that makes me feel a bit odd to start blogging again. I've also noticed that I've missed a lot on things regarding the lives of my friends. So it's very refreshing to know that I'm able to be updating with them again. But before all that, I'm gonna have to clean up my blog and clear it out of all the cobwebs and dust. So, until it is squeaky clean again, toodles!

the Q & the A

2010-05-25T23:32:00.002+08:00

soalan:

orang macam mana yang kau cari?

jawapan:

yang boleh defend aku bila betul

betulkan bila aku salah

argue bila tak setuju

bukannya ikut melulu

boleh buat aku ketawa terbahak2

dan ada di sisi saat mata rabak

paling penting

aku boleh trust dia

sepertimana dia percayakan aku

orang macam ni

tak payah surprise meletup2

ada dia dah cukup

DARI AKU UNTUK GENG (by Dib)

2010-04-30T14:37:00.001+08:00

selak2 buku 3 KUNTUM, terbaca satu puisi yang mengingatkan aku pada geng aku. aku akan sentiasa teringat kowg setiap kali terbaca puisi ni.
kepada geng aku, AKU SAYANG KAMU.

DARI AKU UNTUK GENG
(oleh Dib)

geng
biarlah mereka
biar mereka berbicara
tentang kita

geng
jadilah korang
jadi diri sendiri
pedulikan mereka

geng
teruskanlah saja
teruskan berbicara
teruskan berkarya
teruskan bercerita

geng
kita tak pandai meminta
kita tak pandai mengampu
kita hanya jadi siapa kita
kita tahu mereka cemburu

geng
selagi kita kawan
tiada siapa boleh lawan
kita pun tak berkenan
nak cari gaduh dengan setan

geng
jangan kau khuatir
di saat-saat getir

aku ada
aku ada.

kepada Dib: thanks for letting me share this with them. kan dah kata, cerita kita lebih kurang sama. *wink*

click here for more puisi from Dib or go to misteriaku.blogspot.com.

untuk mereka.

2010-04-29T00:54:00.003+08:00

dengan mereka
aku bebas bersuara
berbicara, berkata-kata
kerana mereka semua sekepala.

antara mereka
tiada yang rahsia
susah senang pedih jerih
selagi boleh ditanggung bersama.

pada mereka
tiada yang mustahil
segala yang dicetuskan kreativiti mereka
bukan hanya kata-kata semata.

kerana mereka
aku gembira
aku suka
segala kesedihan dihapus kira.

bersama mereka
aku adalah aku

kepada mereka,
AKU SAYANG KAMU.

Dear Mr Slowpoke,

2010-04-19T14:11:00.000+08:00

if you see me walking with someone else,
it's not because i like his company.
it's because you are not brave enough to walk beside me.

if you hear me talking about him all the time,
it's not because he pleases me.
it's because you are too deaf to hear my heartbeat.

if you feel me falling with someone new,
it's not because i love him.
it's because you are not there to catch me fall.

ps: the person i'm writing this for may NOT read this. if he DOES read this he may NOT know that it is written for him. that's just how SLOW he is.

dear you, all this while you looked but didn't see. i guess that's why we end up like this.

meet the terrapins!

2010-04-18T13:44:00.003+08:00

Remember my two friends, Sya and Ain who came from Johore the other day? Well, they brought these two cute little terrapins all the way from Johore (so, it can be assumed that these terrapins are Johoreans). My roomate - Ramlah - and I decided to call it Nakatsu-kun and Ayumi-chan. Obviously the names are influenced by Japanese comic characters because we love Japanese comic series! They are actually (apology) presents from Sya. =]
Thanks for the cute little Ts.

kepada empunya nama manusia pertama

2010-04-13T10:19:00.002+08:00

pejam.
celik.
pejam.
celik.

dah tiga batang lilin aku kumpul.
eh, baru tiga batang?
tak apa. nanti aku kumpul lagi.

pejam.
celik.
pejam.
celik.

dah tujuh buah lagu aku dengar.
hehehe.. tujuh?
kebetulan nombor favourite aku.

pejam.
celik.
pejam.
celik.

dah berpuluh cerita aku dengar.
ghalit dibuai alunan suara.
tak tersedar beredarnya masa.

aku nak kumpul banyak lagi lilin.
nak dengar lagu2 yang lain.
nak dengar sambungan cerita2 tu.

tapi gila frust aku rasa
sebab bila aku
pejam.
celik.
pejam.
celik balik.

tiba2 kau dah tak ada.

Manifestasi Teater Malaysia

2010-04-12T16:28:00.013+08:00

Setelah berjaya di sesi kelayakan, KIRANA THEATER PRODUCTIONS sekali lagi mementaskan naskhah DETIK karya Idham Hadi di peringkat kebangsaan. Pementasan telah diadakan pada 3 dan 4 April yang lepas di Taman Budaya Kuala Lumpur. Pementasan kali ini memberi 1001 pengalaman baru pada aku. Banyak yang aku pelajari dalam masa lima hari latihan. Ibarat satu keluarga, segala suka duka kami lalui bersama. Rindu nak lepak depan TV sambil makan coklat dengan korang!

sewaktu latihan dijalankan

muka kepenatan selepas latihan

opening act

antara scene dalam DETIK

curtain call

barisan pelakon

krew KIRANA

ps: gambar 3, 4 & 5 credit to Shazli Shamsuddin. (Thanks for the beautiful pictures.) You can see more pictures of DETIK here.

sampai jugak kowg ke UMP kan!

2010-04-11T00:34:00.007+08:00

Alkisah hari Jumaat yang lepas dua orang sahabat lama aku dari zaman KMK dulu berniat datang ke UMP kerana konsert amal MATAHARI yang ada Faizal Tahir, Farah AF & Amy Search. Setelah selesai test untuk hari itu mereka pun dengan gigihnya berangkat dari Johor. Tapi malang nasib mereka hanya sempat masuk dewan ketika Amy tengah nyanyi lagu terakhir - Isabella. Apa2 pun, konsert tu memang best and memang seronok ada mereka kat sini. HOYEH!

.

2010-04-06T18:21:00.001+08:00

mereka tanya, aku jawab

2010-03-07T17:38:00.004+08:00

mereka tanya: kenapa kau asingkan sotong2 tu? allergic ke?
aku jawab: aku asingkan sebab tu favourite aku. aku nak save the best for last.

mereka tanya: kenapa kau senyap je? kau tak suka tempat ni ke?
aku jawab: aku rasa tempat ni cantik gila. cantik sampai tak terkata.

mereka tanya: kenapa dah tak pakai t-shirt Senandika? selalu pakai t-shirt Kencana Pawana je. dah lupa Senandika ke?
aku jawab: tak pakai baju Senandika sebab sayang. kalau selalu pakai nanti cepat buruk. tak boleh nak simpan lama2.

mereka tanya: dengan dia je kau tak pernah cakap. kau benci dia ke?
aku jawab: siapa kata? aku suka dia. cuma aku malu nak berdepan dengan dia.

mungkin susah untuk mereka baca. kerana apa yang aku buat tak selalunya menunjukkan apa yang aku rasa.

Di Udara - Efek Rumah Kaca

2010-03-01T02:43:00.006+08:00

Efek Rumah Kaca is an Indonesian indie band. First time dengar lagu mereka di blog KakDek. Then Jumaat lepas tengok mereka perform live di Annexe Gallery, Central Market. Memang best tak hengat la. Music simple tapi sedap je dengar. And the words, beautiful. Lagu 'Di Udara' kat bawah ni paling aku suka. KakDek kata lagu ni 'macam *ginih* (thumbs up)'. Memang pun. Lepas dengar ERK perform live lagu ni aku terus beli album dia. Lagu ni dalam album pertama ERK.

Dengar dan nilai sendiri..

Di Udara
Aku sering diancam
juga teror mencekam
Kerap ku disingkirkan
sampai dimana kapan

Ku bisa tenggelam di lautan
Aku bisa diracun di udara
Aku bisa terbunuh di trotoar jalan
tapi aku tak pernah mati
Tak akan berhenti

Aku sering diancam
juga teror mencekam
Ku bisa dibuat menderita
Aku bisa dibuat tak bernyawa
di kursi-listrikkan ataupun ditikam

Tapi aku tak pernah mati
Tak akan berhenti
Tapi aku tak pernah mati
Tak akan berhenti

Ku bisa dibuat menderita
Aku bisa dibuat tak bernyawa
di kursi-listrikkan ataupun ditikam

Ku bisa tenggelam di lautan
Aku bisa diracun di udara
Aku bisa terbunuh di trotoar jalan

Tapi aku tak pernah mati
Tak akan berhenti

2010-02-28T05:15:00.000+08:00

gotta read this!

2010-02-26T04:15:00.000+08:00

These are all 100% real towns in the USA!
What wood varnish were these people drinking? I want some!

Eek and Unalaska, Alaska
Nothing, Arizona
Toad Suck, Arkansas
Secret Town and You Bet, California
Hygiene, Colorado
Frostproof, Florida
Hopeulikit, Georgia
Beer Bottle Crossing, Idaho
Grand Detour, Illinois
Santa Claus, Indiana
What Cheer, Iowa
and Monkey's Eyebrow, Kentucky
Bald Head, Maine
Boring, Maryland
Hell, Michigan
Tightwad and Licking, Missouri
Square Butt, Montana
Truth or Consequences, New Mexico
Cat Elbow Corner, New York
Home and Knockemstiff, Ohio
Half.com, Oregon
King of Prussia and Panic and Scalp Level, Pennsylvania
Red Shirt, South Dakota
Nameless and Sweet Lips, Tennessee
Canadian and Telephone and Cut n Shoot, Texas
Humptulips, Washington
HooHoo and Big Ugly, West Virgina
Imalone, Wisconsin

Best names ever!

Twenty Answers (and more)!

2010-02-24T04:33:00.008+08:00

I posted something game-like on my birthday here. In my version of Twenty Questions, you get to ask a maximum of 20 questions and I promised to answer ALL of them. So this is where I spill it all out. But before I get on with my answers, I would like to sincerely apologize for the long delay of this post. I haven't got enough time to write and post. Still haven't got enough time actually but I'm trying my best to squeeze in some writing time.

So here goes, these are the questions from the people who asked them.

DAOZ

1. What is ur biggest fear?

My biggest fear would be to lose the people I love. Because they have always been my rock and the reason for me to keep on going.

2. What is one of your dirty little secret? (lucky you I didn't ask for the dirtiest)

Oooohh..everybody loves a dirty little secret. Here's one of mine: I used to have a crush on a fellow Senandikan.

3. What is on top of your wishlist?

I do have a list of things I want to do and have which I called 'The Ultimately Awesome Wishlist'. Funny thing is apart from the DSLR and a new guitar which are also in the list, the number one thing I want is to teach a kindergarten. Hahaha.. I don't know why but I just feel that teaching a kindergarten is a must-have experience.

4. What is your current favourite tune?

At the moment 'Dead and Gone' by T.I and Justin Timberlake in on loop non-stop on my phone. I just love the words. Besides, what's not to love about JT? Can I hear a 'Hell Yeah!' from the ladies?!

5. What is your most anticipated movie to watch this year?

Is 'PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN ORIGINS: JACK SPARROW' in the list? Because I've been anticipating that movie for a long time now. But if that's not available, I'm so looking forward to ALICE IN WONDERLAND, THE BOOK OF ELI and HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS: PART 1.

6. Paragliding or bungee jumping?

Bunjee jumping without a doubt! I've been wanting to bunjee jump since god knows when. It's a sure thing to be my would-be hobby. I just LOVE adrenaline rush.

7. How do you like your birthday to be celebrated? (in a logical way, to have Johnny Depp on your birthday is considered impossible)

Since JD is out of the picture, I guess having a birthday splash with my beloved friends and family at Sunway Lagoon would be awesome too.

8. If you aren't studying chemical engineering, what probably are you studying?

This is easy. MUSIC! I remember asking my mom if I could play the piano, violin and guitar when I was 4. Been in love with music ever since. And now, even with a chemical engineering degree on the way, I'm still discretely pursuing that dream. Then I can be the singing chemist. *wink*

9. Do you believe in magic?Y/N

I do! I believe everywhere in this world there's a bit of magic around us. No, I'm not talking about those black magic or dark arts or whatever.

10. What do you think about me? Explain briefly (honestly).

The sweetest friend anyone could ever had who lives for the details and all the little things that makes life memorable but can sometimes be very emotionally unstable.

11. If you could have ANY animal as a pet, what would it be?

If I could have ANY pet regardless of anything, I would want a Yorkshire Terrier. (A garden full of butterflies would be nice too.)

12. If you're to be named after a place, what would you choose?

Marseilles. The oldest city in France.

13. Being grown up and growing up, which is better?

Growing up. That's where the most fun is. You get to make mistakes and do silly things. The fun stops when you are a grown up.

14. What is the weirdest thing happened to you?

This happened when I was in high school. My friends and I were walking home from school and there was an old man walking in our direction. Suddenly as he was passing us he held my arm and looked at me without saying a word. Shortly afterwards he let go and left. Up until now I still didn't know why he did that.

15. Do you agree to this; life is a maze and love is a riddle.

Yup. You have to figure your way in life and find the clue through love.

16. If you could posses a superpower,what would it be and what would your supername be?

I'd pick power mimicry like Peter Petrelli have in Heroes. Then I can have multiple superpowers.

17. What is your wildest dream?

My wildest dream would be to be with Oprah and help her make other people's wildest dream come true.

18. Define Afiqah (eQa) Rahim in 5 words.

Not your average petite friend.

19. Complete this. The world will not be the same without eQa because ________.

It will lose a huge amount of bubbliness.

20. Say you are time traveled and met yourself as a kid,what would you say to little eQa?

"When you are 18 and waiting for university calls, do not accept the ones from USM and UKM because you'll find great friends in UMP." Hahahaha~

(There. I hope you are satisfied with the answers dear. Hehe..)

1. Do you know why The Aa is awesomer than The Eqa?

Actually, I really don't. because The Eqa is seriously way awesomer than The Aa. Oh wait, I forgot, you are Lexus' obedient doodie master. That definitely evens it out. Ergo, The Aa's awesomeness = The Eqa's awesomeness.

2. Will you name your awesome third daughter after me?

That depends on what wedding gift you'll be giving me. Hahaha.. I'll probably take that into consideration since I haven't figured out the name for my third daughter yet. Let's see...does your name goes with any kind of flower?

3. What would you feel like doing if you see a shemale who looks like your bestfriend?

I would befriend that shemale. Hahahahahaah.

4. Who are you obsessing over right now?

It will always be Johny Depp.

5. Do you remember who said this to me last year? 'Adek, Lexus doodie.' :D hehee

If I remembered right, it was me.

6. Don't you just LOOVE Blu-Tack?

Sorry, not really a huge fan of Blu-Tack. Though I am a total Magic-Clipper freak. It sucks that I can't find any in Malaysia.

7. I'm planning to go to Germany and date Tom Kaulitz. Wanna join?

I'll go to Germany with you but I'm afraid I won't be joining you and Tom. I have other plans.

8. Will you buy me an iPod nano 5g in orange?

No. The orange one is mine. I'll buy you the red one. How about that?

9. Do you think that you're as sexy as Amitabh Bhachan? HAHAHA.

No way! Amitabh Bhachan ia waaaayyyyy sexier. Hahahaha...

10. I believe in Aliens. Do you?

Yup. I also believe they look a lot like Najeeha Rahim.

11. Is it true that there's a spot on your head that if a bullet hits it, your whole head blows up?

Isn't that spot on the WHOLE HEAD??

12. Do you understand what I just asked you?

I'm trying my bestest best to look like I do.

13. Do you know what the longest word in the English dictionary is? (Cause I do. That's just how awesome I am.)

I believe you've told me once before but I can't remember. I guess I'm just ignorant to what you say sometimes.

14. Would you trust me with your life? :D

Hell yeah I would! How can I not? You're awesome. =p

15. Can you describe the kinda person that you can imagine me dating? *winkwink*

Let's see.. Tall. Fair. The son of a doctor. Able to argue with you on either silly things or neuron-twisting topics. Knows how to do his hair right. And totally knows his music.

16. If you have a mole the size of hell, would you rather have it on your nose or mouth/lips?

Are those really the only options I have? Then I'd rather have it on the nose (of my youngest brother).

17. Do you care about everything I say to or about you? :D

To say that I care about EVERYTHING you say would be a lie because sometimes you just talk crap. Oh wait a minute, I do care about your crap. Hahahah..

18. What does the color Orange remind you of?

Me. That's just how self-centered I am.

19. Hmm...what else should I ask you?

How about 'when is the next time it will rain in Kuantan'?

20. Ooh, did you know that there's a shop in Miri called 'Kedai Babi'? Hahaha. stupid.

Hahaha.. I do now. Totally unintelligent!

21. Did you know that I was gonna ask you 21 questions but then I remembered that this 'thingy' is called 20-questions so I decided to not ask you the 21st question?

Yeah, cause you just did.

see-hear-speak no evil.

2010-02-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

I'm proudly a '-ty'!

2010-02-07T02:31:00.009+08:00

If you asked me a year ago I would never have wanted to be 20. I would have said that I just want to stay a '-teen' forever. Because being a '-ty' sounds OLD. It doesn't sound fun. So I really didn't want to be a '-ty'. I thought that when the time comes, I'd be reluctant to join the '-ty' group. It seems that I thought wrong. As I was living the last days of my life as a '-teen', I realized that being a '-ty' isn't that bad. It's actually kinda fun. I was ready to be a '-ty' and I was actually excited about it. So here I am, proudly announcing that I am already 20 years of age. YEAY! 20 years of living life (almost) to the fullest. And I'm truly grateful for that. Because in the end it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

And since it's my 20th birthday, I want to play a game of Twenty Questions with you guys! It is my birthday, people, so humor me. (*_*)

For those who didn't already know the game you can read about it here. However, I'm not playing the traditional TQ. In my version of TQ, you get to ask a maximum of 20 questions and I will answer ALL of them in my next post. It can be a simple yes-or-no question or a long explanatory one. Silly or complicated. Personal or general. It can be about cars, or houses, or animals. It can be related to me or something way out of the topic. It can be anything you can ever think of.

Questions can be asked via comments through Blogger or Facebook. The next post will be published in exactly seven days from now so go ahead and ask before Valentine's. Have fun creating questions!

insomniac

2010-01-19T04:36:00.002+08:00

TENANG SEKETIKA

2010-01-18T06:31:00.000+08:00

Apa guna berdiri gagah mendabik dada?
Apa guna berhujah seperti tahu segala?
Jika apa yang dikata membawa bencana.
Apa yang dicanang semuanya usul tanpa periksa.

Pejamkan mata. Bukalah minda.
Cuba berhenti yang berbicara.
Aku minta kalian tenang seketika.

Tenang seketika dan dengar.
Dengar dan fahami situasi.
Jangan hakimi sesuka hati.
Tenang seketika dan kau akan mengerti.

kuatkan semangat.

2010-01-17T15:40:00.003+08:00

Pagi tadi aku dapat satu berita buruk. Aku kehilangan sesuatu yang aku sayang. Kepada sesiapa yang suatu masa dulu sering berkata2 dan mempersendakan tentang ini kepada aku seolah2 mendoakan ianya berlaku, puaslah hati kamu! Memang ini yang kamu mahu kan?

Satu demi satu berita aku terima dan tiada satu pun yang gembira. Aku terima panggilan yang mengejutkan sekali lagi. Kali kedua untuk hari ini. Seorang sahabat-sampai-mati aku sedang dalam waktu yang amat sukar baginya. Aku yang mendengar pun dah tak tertahan sebak di dada. Tapi dia masih dengan semangatnya. Ya, itu memang salah satu kekuatan dia.

Kepada sahabat-sampai-mati itu, kuatkan semangat. Ingat segala ujian dari Allah itu ada hikmahnya. Aku doakan semuanya akan kembali pulih seperti sediakala. Bila2 kau perlukan aku, roger.

My Little MoMo

2010-01-14T16:22:00.004+08:00

Remember I once said here that I am going to have a pet turtle and name it MoMo? Well, I finally did! Ladies and gentlemen, I introduce you to MoMo. My new pet turtle and here's a bit more about him:

It's a he.
He love's watching TV and gets very excited when he hears music.
Just like the owner, he loves heights and likes to climb up high places (I'm thinking of bringing him bungee jumping someday).
He became a member of the family on December 28th, 2009 so that made it his official birthday.
When I first got him, he was only 3.5 cm in diameter. (So cute!)
He also likes to go sight-seeing.
Very prone to eye-sore.
His favourite trick is play dead (and it STILL scares me each time).

This is MoMo posing beside his food bottle. I'm not sure if he intends to be a model when he grows up but he is definitely showing some signs here. Whatever his plans for the future may be, he'll just have to consult it with me first.

This is MoMo's house. It's where he swims and crawls and does the somersaults. This is also where he sleeps and eat and since he's still a growing baby, he sleeps A LOT. Too much that it worries me sometimes.

This white thingy is his water conditioner which is also his source of calcium. It's supposed to make his shell hard and shiny. This thing dissolves slowly into the water and will in time lose it's initial shape. MoMo used to think that it was a living albino turtle and made it his friend. He only realises that it's just a piece of rock after three days communicating with it and never get any reply.

So that, ladies and gentlemen, is my Little MoMo. I'm hoping he would grow up to be a handsome and happy turtle. *wink*

ps: you can watch his video via Facebook here.

a little reunion

2010-01-07T09:39:00.006+08:00

After going through several plans on how to spend this new year's eve, I finally decided to celebrate it with my best friends since high school: Ady, Ummi and Jad. They were my classmates back when I was studying in Puteri Wilayah and has been my BFFs ever since. Allow me to introduce:

Siti Nur Hadikhah aka Ady. The first girl who ever talked to me in Puteri Wilayah. She was one of my nine classmates back then and is now studying in UM. She was also my roommate for over a year when we were in high school. She can get excited over anything and everyone. A bit quirky and blur sometimes. The kind that is not bothered by small matters. She's a friend you can always count on for good advice.

Ummi Ainon Erda aka Ummi (or some people call her Eda). She's currently studying in USIM. We also went to Kedah Matriculation College together. When you first saw her you'll probably say she's arrogant and unfriendly but you'll realize that you were very wrong once you get to know her. ~~Small~~ Petite like myself. Very, very, very, very.....very talkative. She can talk real fast - which I am also capable of - and sometimes when we talk nobody else understands. It's fun and I love her for that. She makes a very good confidante.

Siti Jadirah aka Jad. She's the tallest among the four of us but still she's the shortest in her family (yes, we are all very cute people). I stayed at her house for about a year during my high school years. Being the last one to join us in Puteri Wilayah, she came around as the kind of girl that always do things her way. Very determined once she sets her mind to something. She might not know that she's one of my source of strength being the strong person that she is. She's studying in UiTM now.
However, Jad couldn't join us for the celebration because of her family affairs.

So it was just the three of us. It's been quite some time since we last gathered together so it was like a little reunion. Ady and I went to The Mines together and we hung around and had our late lunch at the Secret Recipe. Ummi joined us a little after lunch and we drove straight to Alamanda. We had dinner - again, at the Secret Recipe since Ummi didn't get to join us for lunch - and later went for a midnight serving of Alvin & The Chipmunks 2. The chipmunks - and the chipettes - were all so cute! We headed out of Putrajaya at around 2:15 am. Something interesting happened when we stopped by the Nilai Toll surau but I guess that will be just among the three of us. We then decided to crash at Ummi's place. We had the most fun ever!

mind.body.soul

2010-01-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

(I dedicate this post to each and everyone who knows me. Each and everyone.)

2010. Sempat juga aku sampai ke tahun ini. Alhamdulillah. Ini semua dengan izinNya jua.

Sebulan lebih. Itu masa yang diambil untuk kembali menulis di ruangan ini. Sepanjang sebulan lebih itu banyak yang boleh diceritakan di sini namun hati aku tak berkeinginan untuk berkongsi. I'm guessing this happens a lot to other writers as well. So, enough said about my not writing here anymore because I knew that eventually I will write again. Eventually. That is what I've been telling my one particular friend who is also one of the reason I am writing again. Yes, my mood to write ran away for a while when vacations didn't seem to work but it finally found its way home.

Only minutes ago it was 2009. How time flies. The year of the Ox left behind all kinds of memoirs. The bitter, the sweet, and everything in between. The only difference between this year and last year's new year celebration is my perspective on it. 2009 was celebrated with excitement, plans and expectations for the upcoming year. 2010, on the other hand, starts off with a review of what had happened along the past year. Bermuhasabah diri seketika. Tak salah kan sekali-sekala memandang ke belakang? Kira subjeknya masih sama. 2009. Tapi dilihat dari perspektif berbeza.

If life is a journey then I consider 2009 as the road that I have traveled on. A journey through LIFE is like a wildcard where you don't know your destination until you reach it. And no GPSs are given so it's mostly intuitive or a gamble. You choose your own route and that will determine your destination. In this case, my mind, body and soul revolved along the way.

So if 2009 is a road, I'd say the journey started off smoothly. I was enjoying the ride. Of course, there were bumps and holes here and there but it was nothing I couldn't handle. However, as I was reaching the end of the road I came across a very confusing roundabout. I got lost while making my turns and didn't know which route I should take. But eventually, I found the way and got to the end of the road.

Everything happens for a reason. Ada hikmahnya. Allah tak akan memberi ujian selain yang mampu dihadapi oleh hambanya. Mistakes happened so we can learn from it. And I've learnt so much through what had happened. I've learnt that the bitter teaches you much more than the sweet. Dan aku bersyukur atas ujian yang telah Engkau berikan. Because it made me stronger. And it also opened my eyes to things I never knew before. Kan dah kata everything happens for a reason. *wink*

So, I would like to say thank you to each and everyone who knows me. The ones who loathes me and the ones who likes me. Those who helped me and those who made my life a living hell. The supportive ones and the skeptical ones. From the bottom of my heart,

THANK YOU!

Because like it or not, you guys made me stronger. Happy New Year guys!

Eksistensial Sial

2009-12-02T07:11:00.002+08:00

aku ingin memohon maaf. kerana mungkin tak akan ada lagi kata2 di ruangan ini. kerana aku tidak lagi punya hati untuk menulis.

yang lalu biarlah berlalu. aku tiada minat untuk mengadu. tak ada gunanya mereka tahu.

saat aku diuji dengan ujian yang maha dahsyat. saat itulah aku terasa paling keseorangan. benarlah bahawa ada hikmah disebalik setiap kejadian. baru aku tahu siapa itu siapa.

biarlah ia menjadi sebuah eksistensial yang aku harap aku lupa suatu hari nanti.

citric acid cycle

2009-11-17T01:15:00.004+08:00

tajuk tak ada kena mengena langsung dengan apa yang aku nak cerita. itu hanya salah satu benda yang aku dok ulang2 sebut dari tadi. sebab aku kena hafal. esok aku punya final exam BIOCHEMISTRY. adeh...aku memang tak berapa nak gemar hafal menghafal ni.

aku teringat masa kat kampung balik beraya ramai2 dengan sepupu sepapat yang berdozen2. kalau nenek nak panggil salah seorang dari cucu2 kesayangan dia, habis semua nama cucu dia sebut. sebutlah nama seorang2 cucu dia sampai yang ke-17 tu baru betul. nak panggil pian tapi ain eli ika awin semua dia sebut. gila comel nenek aku. tapi apa kena mengena nenek aku dengan citric acid cycle?

sekarang baru aku faham perasaan nenek aku kena hafal banyak2 nama. aku pun dah jadi macam nenek aku dah. banyak sangat nama nak kena ingat sampai terbelit2 neuron aku. baru sekejap tadi urat aku tersimpul. nasib baik tak simpul mati. kira boleh lagi aku leraikan balik. macam mana la kalau nama2 yang aku hafal ni aku bagi kat cucu2 aku nanti. nanti masa aku nak panggil cucu aku habis semua aku sebut. glyceraldehyde, glycerate, glutamate, phosphate, lambda karbaminohemoglobin padahal yang aku nak panggil cucu bongsu aku pyruvate. boleh cramp lidah aku on the way nak sampai kat nama dia.

korang dah nampak kan apa effect menghafal pada aku. tak pasal2 aku merepek kat sini. dah2. aku nak sambung balik study. tinggal esok paper terakhir aku. lepas tu apa lagi. HUHHHAA!!

is that how it's gonna be?

2009-11-08T13:59:00.006+08:00

terbaca blog seseorang
yang terguris hatinya oleh sahabat sendiri
lalu aku tertanya2
itukah nasibku nanti?

PS: sorry for the temporary abandonment of my blog. my mood to write went on a holiday trip to Barbados.

i just said the hardest NO

2009-10-19T12:10:00.008+08:00

I talked to a very dear friend of mine very recently. He often calls and we would talk about things. I guess I'm kinda like his confidante. But life really knows how to surprise you when you least expect it. He always confide. So, when I was answering his call I never expected that I would be hearing something else. A confession.

It really stunned me. For a long moment I didn't know what to say and when I finally figured out an answer I was struggling for a way to say it. I was looking for a way to explain. How do I say it without hurting his feelings? Saying no to a complete stranger is easy. Saying no to someone you hate is even easier. But saying no to someone you know so well and cared about so much is the hardest thing to do. At least for me, it is.

I said it anyway. Trying my best to explain. Choosing my words carefully so as not to hurt him. I do love him. The way a sister loves a brother. I couldn't picture us being anything more than that. It was totally platonic. And I had to let him know that. So I did.

I know he will be reading this sooner or later. That is why I'm posting this. I want him to know that I'm truly sorry if somehow my words managed to find their way to hurt him. I appreciate the courage. I know it wasn't easy. He said things will not be the same again. At least not for now. For that, I want him to know that whenever he is ready to call me a friend again, I will be right here. Always trying to reply his "hye"s. Always willing to hear his stories. Always happy to be his friend.

Again, I'm really sorry.

did this out of boredom

2009-10-18T03:01:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps, get this. I found it through the internet.

The song with the longest title is "I'm a Cranky Old Yank in a Clanky Old Tank on the Streets of Yokohama with my Honolulu Mama Doin' Those Beat-o, Beat-o Flat-On-My-Seat-o, Hirohito Blues" written by Hoagy Carmichael in 1943.

Try saying that three times non-stop. I dare you!

*maniacal laugh*

Dear You,

2009-10-16T00:37:00.010+08:00

i thought i knew what i wanted
i thought i was sure
that following my heart was the right thing to do
NOW I'M JUST LOST
because my heart seems to be wrong

*sigh*

i hope it's easier this time.

Dear Heart, no more games. Please.

PS: To Senandika, I'm really liking the crew members of the next production and the new line of MTs for the group. I'm hoping for the BESTEST BEST in the future. It'll be fun working together again, like always. CHAIYOK2! \(*_*)/

selamat malam seluruh alam

2009-10-14T02:37:00.000+08:00

rabak mata menjaga takungan air dari pecah.

berombak dada menahan sebak tak kebah2.

sesak nafas melemaskan diri yang hampir rebah.

tidak.

mereka tak boleh tahu.

biar hancur tulang-temulang memikul beban di bahu.

sikit pun mereka tak perlu tahu.

pejam mata.

tarik nafas dalam2.

hembus perlahan2.

senyum.

raya

2009-10-08T05:12:00.009+08:00

As I promised, here's the post about my two weeks spent in Brunei. It has been delayed for quite some time since I can't really find the time to write. But I'm trying my best not to let my blog go all dusty.

So I went back to Brunei for this year's Eid and the whole crowd was waiting for me at the arrivals. Papa had to work though, but Mama was there. Aa, Aiman and Adib was there too - all of them now bigger than ever. Bibik was waiting for me at home and Wawa wasn't there because she still needed to answer exam papers back in Malaysia.

As I got home I was surprised to see that there were cats everywhere. Last time I checked there were only four of them. And now they were all over the place. All nine of them. There's Moo, Grille, Puma, Zebra, Fe, Tucson, Ireland, Fifi and Lexus.

This is Lexus. He's the laziest, friendliest, most pampered of all the cats in the house. Oh yes. Speaking of pets, our terrapins - Harry, Ron and Hermione - which used to be only the size of a fifty-cent coin are now humongous and need to be put in the garden outside. Their place is still under construction, I think.

Eid preparations were always the same. Nothing but the usuals: hanging the lights, changing the curtains and cushions, cleaning the house, changing light bulbs, and not forgetting lighting up the pelita every night. Most of it is done by our WonderBIBIK who is 'serbaguna dan tahan lama' but we had our fair share of chores too.

We also went to Uncle Shahdan's restaurant for buka puasa. Uncle Shahdan is a Johorean family friend and I have to mention here that his Laksa Johor is the best. If I were to choose, I'd rather come all the way to Brunei for his Laksa. Well, that and many other super-delicious food he cooks. Again, kudos to you Uncle Shahdan!

Raya was also the usuals. (Mind you, Bruneian 'usuals' is not like what we do here in Malaysia. Their 'usuals' include the whole 30 days of open house and a minimum of 8 pairs of raya attire). We had our open house on the 4th day of Eid and boy was it tiring. People were coming in and out the whole day and so were the whole-chickens as the guests keep on eating whatever they can find on the table. The sugar-cane rice which we learned to make from our neighbor was a big hit too. Thanks to ~~Mufasa~~ Mustafa's dad for that.

So that was pretty much all I did during the two weeks spent there. Raya was fun for the first time in three years because it seems that the best raya is the one spent with your whole family, no matter where that is. Speaking of, there's news that this may be the last raya with Bibik around. I hope that's not true. There's also news which involves me being a modern nomad again. Now that, I'm not sure about just yet. I'm just crossing my fingers and keeping on praying.

Happy Raya! =]

2009-09-13T01:20:00.008+08:00

I'll be off to Brunei in a few hours and will be staying there for a couple of weeks.

So excited to celebrate Raya with my family for the first time in three years. Yeay!

There may not be any updates for the next two weeks but expect a pretty long one after.

Last words:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

tengok bulan

2009-09-03T03:10:00.003+08:00

sedang mata melilau gigih membaca nota

terpandang ke luar tingkap

bulan cantik malam ini

ANDAI INI RAMADHAN TERAKHIR

2009-08-24T23:41:00.009+08:00

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu siangnya engkau sibuk berzikir
tentu engkau tak akan jemu melagukan syair rindu
mendayu.. merayu..
kepadaNya Tuhan yang satu

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu solatmu kau kerjakan di awal waktu
solat yang dikerjakan dengan penuh khusyuk lagi tawadhu'
tubuh dan qalbu bersatu
memperhamba diri menghadap Rabbul Jalil
menangisi kecurangan janji
"innasolati wanusuki wamahyaya wamamati lillahirabbil 'alamin"
[sesungguhnya solatku, ibadahku, hidupku, dan matiku...
kuserahkan hanya kepada Allah Tuhan sekalian alam]

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tidak akan kau siakan walau sesaat yang berlalu
setiap detik tak akan dibiarkan begitu saja
di setiap kesempatan juga masa yang terluang
alunan Al-Quran bakal kau dendang
bakal kau syairkan

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu malammu engkau sibukkan dengan
bertarawih, berqiamullail, bertahajjud
mengadu.. merintih.. meminta belas kasih
"sesungguhnya aku tidak layak untuk ke syurgaMu
tapi aku juga tidak sanggup untuk ke nerakaMu"

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu dirimu tak akan melupakan mereka yang tersayang
kau meriahkan Ramadhan
kau buru.. kau cari.. suatu malam idaman
yang lebih baik dari seribu bulan

andai kau tahu ini Ramadhan terakhir
tentu engkau bakal menyediakan batin dan zahir
mempersiap diri
rohani dan jasmani
menanti-nanti jemputan Izrail
di kiri dan kanan
lorong-lorong redha Ar-Rahman

Duhai Ilahi....
andai ini Ramadhan terakhir buat kami
jadikanlah ia Ramadhan paling bererti
paling berseri
menerangi kegelapan hati kami
menyeru ke jalan menuju redha serta kasih sayangMu, Ya Ilahi
semoga bakal mewarnai kehidupan kami di sana nanti

Namun tak akan ada manusia yang bakal mengetahui
apakah Ramadhan ini merupakan yang terakhir kali bagi dirinya
yang mampu bagi seorang hamba itu hanyalah
berusaha... bersedia... meminta belasNya

wahai Tuhan ku tak layak kesyurgaMu.. namun tak pula aku sanggup ke nerakaMu.. kami lah hamba yang mengharap belas dariMu

"ya Allah jadikan lah kami hamba2Mu yang bertaqwa..ampunkan dosa2 kami serta dosa2 kedua ibubapa kami. dosa semua umat2 Islam yang masih hidup mahupun yang telah meninggal dunia"

Amin.....

andai benar ini Ramadhan terakhir buat saya

MAAFKAN SEMUA KESALAHAN YANG PERNAH SAYA LAKUKAN

here's a big box full of expressions!

2009-08-24T23:10:00.001+08:00

PERKASA dinner
August 15, 2009

i'm awesome! ahakz

2009-08-23T04:18:00.008+08:00

I'm an awesome blog buddy. YEAY! I would like to thank all my readers yang gigih baca what I wrote (walaupun lately dah kurang frequency meng-update). Bagus2. Teruskan kegigihan anda ek. Because I'm nobody without you guys. Wahh.. ayat memang cannot go. Translate ayat Azim je pun. Haha. Speaking of, thanks to Azim for making me awesome. Ahakz!

Okay, enough thanks already. As usual, there's always a catch. So let's see what this one brings us.

First of all, I have to state 5 interesting things about Azim (since he's the one who said I'm awesome). Well, I've only known him since I joined Kencana Pawana so I don't really know much about him. But I'm gonna try my best. Hehe.

He's a choreographer for Kencana Pawana. Cool eh?
He's quiet but laughs a lot.
His face can get really red when he laughs.
He's a final year student.
He was the former leader of Kencana Pawana.

Okay. I admit that I couldn't tell much. Most of it relates to Kencana Pawana anyways. But what can I say. That's where I know him. Hurmm... For the second part, I have to tell 10 things about myself. Although I've done this one before here, I feel like I'm in the mood to tell 10 other things about me. Here goes, I:

Am currently in my second year at UMP.
Am thinking of buying a pet tortoise and name him MOMO.
Love bracelets. Especially wooden ones.
Am currently enjoying dancing with Kencana Pawana.
Dream of having my own coffee shop.
Miss ice-skating so much.
Wonder when I'll be going to Genting Highlands again.
Have an autographed KoKen script. (Thanks to Daoz)
Love beaches a lot.
Am developing OCD. I think.

There's the 10 other things about me that you may or may not already know. As for the third part, I'm going to have to choose 10 blogger as my awesome blogger buddy. And they are:

That's my 10 awesome blogger buddies. Thanks for reading through. Again. =]

THANKS FOR BEING US [the reply]

2009-08-23T03:45:00.006+08:00

eQa | ramlah | nadya

This is a response post to my dear roommate, Ramlah's blog post titled THANX FOR BEING US.
We had a GREAT time that day. Then again, we have great times whenever we are together. So dear roomies, this is a post especially to say how much I appreciate you guys for always being there. For better or for worse. I LOVE YOU GUYS! And you too Nayya!

nayya

PS: Nayya is my ex-neighbour.

how to start your RAMADHAN

2009-08-23T02:03:00.018+08:00

It's the first day of Ramadhan so my roomies and I decided to go break our fast somewhere out of the ordinary. Yes, the cafeteria food can be pretty boring. So we went to Tanjung Lumpur with some friends.

dilla | eQa | mira | ramlah

bro fi | wan | mal | bee

The eight of us got there around six and after booking a table and placing our orders we went to the beach.

I've been to Tanjung Lumpur a few times before but I've never been to the beach since we only came at night. So I was a bit excited when I saw the beach. You know how I LOVE beaches. So we played around on the beach and made full use of Ramlah's camera.

When it was about time for Maghrib we went back to the restaurant to break our fast. It was fun and we had a great time posing for the camera. Most of my friends are probably at home enjoying their first day of fasting with their families. Well, I can't go home this weekend but I'm sure glad that these people are here.

HAVE A HAPPY RAMADHAN EVERYBODY!

(more photos here)

why i LOVE night lab session:

2009-08-21T01:23:00.008+08:00

1. It's freezing cold in the lab.
2. Using the instruments and machines is so much fun.
3. It feels like I'm in one of those CSI labs. (You know how much I'd love to be one of the CSIs)
4. Because of this instructor, Encik Anuar. Sempoi habis. Haha.

PS: I'm thinking of having a tortoise as a pet. Cemburu dengan Kamal punya April dan June.

ada orang kata..

2009-08-20T11:39:00.004+08:00

"Luahkan apa yang terbuku dalam hati. Baru puas."
Bukan tak mahu. Cuma tak tahu bagaimana dan kemana.

mask on, everybody!

2009-07-31T08:20:00.005+08:00

Last night all my classmates of K27 wore masks during our whole lab session due to prevention of the infamous H1N1 virus.

It made my spectacles go all foggy.

But as they say, curing is never better that preventing.

So mask on, people!

(I think I'm going to ask my mom to send some with the cute designs from Brunei)

and it goes like this...

2009-07-31T01:31:00.003+08:00