idiosyncrasies of a lady: May 2009

it's wedding season again!

Yup! It's wedding season again and people are getting married everywhere.
So is this tag about wedding wishes. It's everywhere now.
I got this from Daoz and it goes like this:

1. How old are you?
> 19 years young.
'Young' bak kata Daoz.

2. Are you single?
> I believe so.
Hurmm..

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
> 25 (plus-minus).
Sempatkah aku ke sana?

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
> And who is that again?
Up until now, the name has been a blur.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
> Johnny Depp.
I don't mind being his 22nd wife.

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
> Okay. This is a tough one. Best friends..cousins..sisters. Umm..help please?
Tak pilih nanti kecik hati plak. Ish3.

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
> I'd love to have a very traditional/cultural wedding.
Can it be in a garden by the beach?

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
> Any one/all of the places found here.
'All' is preferable. I repeat: preferable, not necessary.

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
> Since nobody will be left out, I'm guessing a LOT!
More guests means higher wedding cost. I think I should start saving already. Ahakz!

10. Will that include your exes?
> Why not if they want to.
One of them did mention he would like to know who I ended up with.

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
> Can I have it in the shape of something instead of the typical layers?
A cake in the shape of the first place we met perhaps. Hee~

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
> If I can have it my way, I prefer evening.
Tapi tak nak la buat pelik2 sangat. Selalu orang buat siang je. Malam is for family and friends kot.

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
> This I have to choose with my future hubby.
Kalau nak tanya Johnny Depp terus pun boleh je.

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon & fork.
> Chopsticks please.
Selalu orang makan pakai tangan je pun.

15. Champagne or red wine?
> Blue lime.
Ni kena discuss dengan Kak Ngah dulu ni.

16. Honeymoon right after wedding or days after the wedding?
> I think it should be days after the wedding.
But then again, it should be decided with my future hubby.

17. Money or household item?
> Both is fine.
Tapi kalau nak bagi household item tu bincang2 la dulu antara korang ek. Tak ada la nanti dapat sampai 5 toaster.

18. How many kids would you like to have?
> 4 maybe. Future hubby will have a say too.
Since I really think twins are adorable I'd have to marry someone who has it in his genetics.

19. Will you record your honeymoon in a cd?
> Sure thing.
Rugi la kalau pergi tempat2 cantik tapi tak record. Nanti bila dah tua2 tengok balik mesti best. Ngeheheh..

20. I want to know their wedding planning
> Rani, Bob and Syafiq.
Agak2 diorang nak buat tak? Hak3. Wawa, you're tagged too!

NOTE: Some of the plans may be a bit more absurd than the others. Please be aware that they are just meant to be jokes. A wedding is a ceremony to unite two people who loves one another. What's important is the happiness you feel on your wedding day. Simple or elaborate is not really the question.

what spontaneity can lead to:

Who knows midnight boredom and sleep refusal can lead to kerang bakar.
Unfortunately, there are no pictures of the kerang bakars.
We were all busy enjoying the kerangs that nobody thought of taking pictures.
(^_^)v

reminiscing again...

Out of boredom, I went through my pictures' folder randomly and found the ones from Jejak Warisan '09 for which we went to Seri Menanti, Negeri Sembilan starting May 1st until the 3rd. The pictures made me smile =]

abstrusely clear

i found something new:

an expression which triggers two very-opposite emotions
(is there a special term for that?)

dan aku tertarik pada si empunya ekspresi

*sigh*

Googling my homes

I got tagged by Rani and this is a fun one because I've never used Google Maps before.
Plus, it feels good to be able to see your house. Heheheh.

The tag goes like this:

1. Search your house area using Google Maps.
2. Circle out your house.
3. Tag another 5 bloggers.

House #1:

This is my aunt's home in Wangsa Maju, KL. I'll be here during short breaks.

House #2:

This one took me quite a while to find. It's my home in Brunei Darussalam. This is where I'll be during long holidays when there's no theatre rehearsals.

And those to be googling their houses are:

1. Kak Ita
2. Wawa
3. Yusno
4. Syidek
5. Mashie

Happy Googling!

wonderment personified

Mere words could not describe the intensity of my love for her, the greatness of my admiration for her strength and my idolization of her kind heart.

But if there is one thing that I could not do, it is to look into my mother's eyes. Whenever I look into those tired eyes I can see the pain, exhaustion and patience of a martyr that is well covered by her cheerful and happy personality. Indeed, she hides it well. I never did have the courage to see all the hardship she's been through to keep the family together and raise five mischievous children. And realize that she isn't getting any younger. She's not getting any stronger or healthier, too. Her age has taken it's toll on her. You can see it all in those eyes. So, I tend to look elsewhere whenever I'm talking to my mother. Anywhere but those tired eyes. I just couldn't bear it.

My mother is by far the most wonderful person I have ever known. The most wonderful person anyone can ever have as a mother (but of course, everybody will say the same thing about their mother). She will always be that most wonderful person to me. And I'm not sure that I can ever be even close to half the person she is now. For my sisters, my brothers and I, her actions has always been a reminder to be kind and courteous. To forgive and forget. And she has been the best example we can refer to.

Looking back, I know I have done so many wrongs to her. I owe her my time, attention and so much more. I don't know if I will ever have the guts to say to her what I'm writing here but I know that sooner or later she will read this as she is my devoted reader.

Ma, for all this 19 years of living I am sorry for the times I did not spend with you, the words that have broken your heart, the things I did not do and the things I did do that made you want to pinch my ear.

How I really, really miss resting my head on her lap, her soothing hugs and how happy and secure she made me feel by just being there. Not forgetting her perfect spaghetti, lasagna, muffins, chicken pie and mayo macaroni that will make you drool.

Really looking forward to seeing her end of this month. Can't wait!

Love you Ma,
eQa

it's only words

"sempatkah aku ke sana
ku takut semua
hilang bernama"

Somehow these three lines of words from Fynn Jamal's blog kept playing in my mind. Because that's how I've been feeling lately. And often when there is nothing between me and the silent sky one final line would appear:

"apa sebenarnya yang kau mahu?"