idiosyncrasies of a lady: ♥

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senyuman dia

hari ini aku melihat dia memandang pada aku sambil tersenyum. perkara yang jarang2 berlaku sejak akhir2 ini. dah lama aku tak nampak dia senyum selebar itu. selalunya mukanya serius memikirkan tugasan. kadang2 sugul memikirkan masalah. tapi hari ini berbeza. tak sangka aku dapat melihat dia senyum. senyumannya yang selalu menyebabkan aku senyum sekali. terlalu asyik melihat dia senyum, sehingga aku tak sedar yang rupanya dia tersenyumkan perkara yang disembangkan di dalam telefon bersama rakannya. alangkah bagus kalau senyumannya itu untuk aku.

for better or for worse

Dear,

This is not a love letter, neither is it a warning letter. It isn't a wish list, nor a request. It requires no reaction, no response. Because it is just a statement. It is not created because I'm upset, certainly not because you have done something wrong. It is just a simple note that I feel like writing for you. And it exists for one reason and one reason alone: to let you know. To let you know a piece of what I'm thinking. To let you know this -

I have asked something from you before. I asked for permission. Permission for ME to know everything. Every single little thing that happen to you or in front of you. No matter how insignificant it is.
The reason I asked for that is not because I'm jealous. Although, I admit that sometimes I DO get jealous. But that's not the case here. The reason I want to know everything about you is because it is about YOU. And knowing everything about you makes me feel like we're closer. No matter how far apart we are.
So tell me everything. I want to know. For being close to you is one thing I will never get tired of.

XO.

musim durian dah mula!!

Yeay!! Musim durian dah nak mula lagi!! Tak sabar rasa nak balik kampung makan durian longgok berbakul2. Teringat pula dulu waktu kami sekeluarga sekali dengan nenek, makcik2, pakcik2 dan sepupu sepapat menyerbu sebakul besar durian sebab tengah musim. Kebetulan masa tu raya aidilfitri dan giliran kami sekeluarga beraya di Malaysia. Sampai sakit2 perut kami melayan durian. Ada yang sampai demam2 siap. Orang kata, tak payah mengaku orang Perak lah kalau tak makan durian. Hahaha..saya setuju!

Disebabkan tak sabar nak tunggu betul2 musim durian, hari Khamis lepas saya dan En. Kopi 'O' pun pergi lah ke Kuantan dengan misi mencari durian. Sebenarnya En. Kopi 'O' yang teringin sangat nak makan durian. Saya biasa je sebab sebelum tu dah makan dengan roommate2 terchenta. Disebabkan keteringinan yang tak dapat dibendung, saya pun temanlah En. Kopi 'O' pergi menjejak durian.

Jalan punya jalan, kami ternampak ada satu gerai tepi jalan jual durian. Ada dua orang apek jaga durian tu. Kami pun berhenti tepi jalan dan pergi meninjau2. Harga durian masa tu agak mahal sebab belum betul2 musim lagi. Tapi sebab teringin sangat nak makan, En. Kopi 'O' tak kisah. Dia beli juga. So kami beli sebiji durian D24 dengan harga RM28. Beli sebiji je sebab yang nak makan kami berdua je. 'Biar mahal asal tak kempunan'.

Dah kata teringin sangat nak makan, memanglah tak tahan bau durian tu bila letak dalam bonet. Rasa nak buka dan makan masa tu juga. Tapi kena cari tempat yang sesuai. So kami pun pergi ke Teluk Cempedak. (mana lagi tempat sesuai nak menikmati makanan, mestilah kat pantai kan!) Bila dah buka durian tu lagi lah kami teruja. Isi durian tu SANGAT tebal, gebu dan manis! Tebal sangat sampai saya hanya larat makan seulas je. By the time nak makan ulas kedua, saya dah tak larat nak habiskan. Apa lagi, En. Kopi 'O' pun seronok la habiskan yang selebihnya.

Sekian cerita pengembaraan kami mencari durian di kala musimnya baru nak mula. Akhirnya memang kami puas hati dapat makan durian yang sangat sedap. Oh ye, maaf lah gambar kualiti Sony Ericsson 2 megapixels je. Itu je yang ada masa tu. Hehehe~

Gelora Curry Puff

If you are ever in Kuantan, there is one place that you just HAVE to go. You must've heard about the beautiful Teluk Cempedak Beach (TC) which is quite a popular spot in Kuantan. On the way to TC, you'll find another beach (Kuantan has a number of beautiful beaches) known as Taman Gelora Beach. There's a small stall at the edge of Taman Gelora's carpark which serves mouth watering curry puff. The stall is owned by a Malay family and is usually open only for a short time of the day. The curry puffs are well sought after that most of the time, you would have to queue up to buy them.

Mr. Kopi 'O' and I have been drooling for these puffs for a very, very long time. We would always go out with these savory curry puffs in our minds. However, every time we arrived at the park (which is about 5.30 pm - 6.00 pm), it would always be too late and the stall closed. I have even thought seriously about taking the stall's owner's phone number so I would know when it will be opened again. We usually end up eating some place else.

So last Tuesday, we planned to go out early just so we can catch the stall's business hours. We went a bit too early and at about 4 pm, we head straight to Taman Gelora. Mr. Kopi 'O' bought a plastic bag full of the puffy puffs. They were fat and yummy!

We ate some of it, and went on with our main plan which is to have a picnic at Teluk Cempedak Beach. So we went there and continued eating the puffs on the breezy beach. The beautiful weather made the curry puffs a lot tastier. Mr. Kopi 'O' bought so many that by the time we ended our picnic by the beach, the plastic bag was still half-filled with curry puffs. After the picnic we went home with a very content heart that we finally get to eat the delicious curry puffs.

PS: I should have taken the rest of the puffs instead of letting Mr. Kopi 'O' finish them. I'm craving for it again now! Owh, and thank you Mr. Kopi 'O'! ♥

to think or not to think?

sometimes he thinks,

sometimes he doesn't.

that's why i love him.

The Reason

He ties the most perfect ribbon on my watch.

But that's not the reason I love him.

He buys me chocolate when I'm in period pain.

But that's not the reason I love him.

He holds me quietly when I'm in emotional chaos.

But that's not the reason I love him.

He loves me for who I am, unconditionally.

That's the reason I love him.

02112010

HARI INI:

Birthday Encik Kopi 'O'.
Dia tak ingat birthday dia sendiri. (katanya lah.)
Celebrate di Gambang Point bersama Syidek, Akmal, Dilla dan Encik B.
First time mereka rasa 'Pecan Butterscotch' dari Secret Recipe. (nasib baik mereka suka!)
Sayang sebab Che Am, Yusrie, Yen, Pae dan geng/kronies yang lain tak dapat join.

SELAMAT HARI LAHIR

HAZRYL SYAFIQ ROZELI

(ko hingat ko hensem?!)

words in pointless form.

i can be very emotional.

and when i'm being that emotional wreck i would usually prefer to be alone.

i would rather keep quiet.

because only in such silence i can hear myself think.

and being silent has become a therapy.

a habit during those wobbly times, to be exact.

and i have become used to that sound.

the sound of nothingness.

nothing but the thoughts in my head.

i can be very expressive.

and when i'm being expressive i always know what i'm saying.

until i reach the point where nothing i say makes sense.

when words could no longer portray how i feel inside.

for those times, i would cry.

because that is the only way i know left to let it go.

the only outlet for what has built up inside me.

and i hate to be seen crying.

so i would rather be alone.

i can be very simple.

i could care less about the things that would bother me.

about the things that contradict happiness and peace.

as long as i know what is going on around me.

as long as i know the truth, no matter how bitter it is.

or else, i would make assumptions.

speculations that can either be true or false.

my imagination can go beyond expectations.

when that happens, i can turn so complicated people would not understand me.

and to avoid any complications with the communication i have with people, i would choose to be alone.

i am so used to being alone.

so used to handling things myself.

in my own way.

because i used to be alone.

i used to handle things myself.

in my own way.

i guess i am so accustomed to being independent that i forget.

i forget that i now have people around me.

people that actually care.

people that actually worry.

and during those emotional times where the only thing i think about is my selfish self and the little things that bother me, i unintentionally ignored them.

and i'm sorry.

if i were in a more sane state, this is what i would really say:

thank you for staying by my side. even though it seemed like i didn't want you there.

the truth is i needed it. so i know that whatever happens, you will be there for me.

thank you for holding my hand all the way through. even though i didn't hold yours back.

the truth is i didn't have the strength. but at least i know that when i reach the point of giving up, you will never let me.

thank you for singing through those silent moments. even though i'm used to the sound of nothingness.

the truth is it's actually calming. and it reminds me that i'm not alone anymore.

SAMPAI TUA by Fynn Jamal

ini untuk kekasih hati aku. yang semalam telah tersentap jiwanya oleh sesuatu yang tak tersengaja. yang telah berkecamuk mindanya disebabkan perkara yang terjadi tanpa rela.

sayang, berhenti bersedih. kalau tak hati aku yang pedih.

SAMPAI TUA by Fynn Jamal

kasih
kesatkanlah airmata
ku dah tiba

kasih
percayalah aku kan ada
sampai tua

ini sumpahku padamu
usah kau patah dan layu
garing siang malam beku
pasakku teguh untukmu

mungkin taufan akan surut
tetap datang petir ribut
setiapnya aku sambut
untukmu takkan ku takut

kasih
biarkanlah apa saja
takdir kita

kasih
pegangkanlah jariku lama
sampai tua

ini sumpahku padamu
usah kau patah dan layu
garing siang malam beku
pasakku teguh untukmu

mungkin taufan akan surut
tetap datang petir ribut
setiapnya aku sambut
untukmu takkan ku takut

dan malam takkan berhenti menghirup nyawamu kasih
dan siang akan berterus meratahmu sampai bersih
aman saja aku ada
dihirupratah pun tetap berpimpinan berdua
sampai tua
aku ada
sampai tua

rasa

rasa yang sempurna ini aku takut tercela.

takut tersumbing mana2.

takut tercalar tanpa sengaja.

takut retak tak terbela.

♥

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